Dilligence

(I'm getting addicted to taking photos on my phone.)

Harlow.

I'm learning the Blues recently and I think the Blues has got the better side to me, especially on the music side of me.

I went for piano class yesterday totally unprepared. End result? I wasted both the teacher's and my time. She say some words to me yesterday before i left for home,

"Why don't you go learn Singing? A Pianist have to play the piano until he is confused. ... With all the instruments around, the Pianist is the most hardworking, followed by the violinist." -- Miss Leong Xiao Yan

Knowing her intention at heart, I thank her for saying words slanted at this angle because it was kind of her and impactful for me. I spend the whole night and this morning thinking about practices.

In the past, i treated practices as a second priority, practicing when I'm free, skipping class. Things have to change. To not waste the money invested, not letting down my piano teacher and lastly myself, i got to practice hard.

Of course, this applies to drum as well. Being a percussionist, i suck at drum. Actually, i suck at music. Being a sucky person, i got to use something else to compensate for this. HARDWORK. This might jolly well be the one best life lesson I learned from Mr Lee, since leaving secondary school.

"If you are not as smart, then practise hard to make-up for that in order to achieve the same standards." -- Mr Lee Kah Chin

To stack things up, I have been reading Tony's blog time to time and his entry after the omega performance, I sort of have some enlightenment regarding his serious (and somewhat moment of pissed feelings) outlook on us as performers. He articulate some unwritten rules that has been in the air. Although his entry hurts to a certain degree, I can't help to agree on the things that he said.

in point form, this is my response to what he mentioned.

• Red Cliff was really nice. will be watching the sequel too.
• High expectation can lead to high quality, but the pressure must be channelled correctly.
• Performance mood have to be prepared, i agree.
• ouch, my rhythm sense is offended.
• "think for the group, act for the group"
• Buck up Buck up = more practise for me.
• thanks for letting me know how you think with ZingO, it helps :]

Got to end here so I can go school and study.

But i have to say thank you to Miss Leong, Mr Lee and Tony before i go. They contribute to part of my life lessons.

Hopefully, i can smile like this about music someday after hardwork.

Regards,
ONg LAi

A trip to Changi

Went to Changi today, been there before, but today, i saw it's other side of it. I went alone to racky the chalet for ZingO end of year chalet. Being alone, my thoughts of the place are not affected by the comments of others. For example, my last visit to Changi was for a scouts' camp at Ubin, with the rest of the scouts, burden with food supplies and equipment, all was half excited and the other half unhappy that the camp is going to be cut short from three days to two. It was not really pleasant, especially for those who were the campers and the others who are the planners, that would be everyone except mr Lee, perhaps didn't understand the spirit of camping at that point of time. Hence, complains about the stuff being heavy, the sea smelled even more salty than it usually was, the fares for the bum-boats to Ubin were super expensive, etc. was heard. Inevitably, my spirit and attitude towards Ubin and Changi was affected for the worse. Since then, i never really gave a second thought to that place.

Changing the view from the rear mirror to the front of my life vehicle (ME), I used some time walking around Changi, not Ubin because i didn't have time to take the boat ride, from the Yatch Club chalet to the Beach Walk, to Changi Village and to the Changi Beach Park. It was great to take things at my own pace and being alone prevented distractions. I got some ideas of how the chalet activities and schedules would be after the time by the coastal line of Changi. A simple world of SAF power over the chalets and the smell of salt, polluted by the boats and rubbish found on the surface of the waters. I think looking at the sea relaxes the mental self. All the defense mechanism and skeptical thoughts slowly vanished, as thought left with my footsteps on the footpath.

Took this photo on my phone's camera and edited as well. Somehow, it looks really nice. Although the angle is learnt from one of the photos i saw before, the meaning of the photo is really different. This photo means alot, but I don't know how to put it into words.

I like the photo, do you?

ONg LAi

Summer Life.

Finally, the hextic 6 weeks of MGB(organisational behaviour) and MGI(Human resources management) is over. Saying good bye to Dr. David Whitehead (but not the stuff he taught us), i am kind of glad that we managed to survive the 2 courses with such great project grades!

anyway, i like working with my groups quite alot and the class environment was great with grouping and coordination going along. It is an enjoyable half semester. Let's hope the next half will be slightly more relaxed.

I lived my life since last entry with great experiences.

i lived past miscommunication with emails.

i lived past 2 crazy exams.

i lived with planning for the future.

i lived by being a caffine addict, drinking starbucks, with my books.

i lived choosing tough decisions.

i lived by my motto, "do things to the fullest and leave no regrets."

i'm tired and confused.

night pple!

YuJun

PHOTOS FROM FLIPSIDE

I GOT THE PHOTOS FROM FLIPSIDE!!

Thank you very much to Pui Yee and photography club friends, although a truthful comment form me would be to get more angles while taking the photos, and to give more exposure to others parts of the stage, other than where you can comfortably take photos while polishing the seat out.

Other than that, thank you very much for coming down and taking the photos and supporting the first show, which wasn't our usual standards. Sorry to put up such a lousy performance on the first night.

Here are the photos.

Blogger is giving lots of problems for me posting such fat-sized files. So til next time.

ONg LAi

Life's gooder.

HelloOOOOO!

if you can't see my title for this entry, it's "Life's Gooder". Well, it's getting better than before but then it's still not perfect yet, "who have a perfect life?" you may ask. The question might be too philosophical for me to answer, so just treat it as food for thought.

Dividing my life into sections for easy reading, in sense that after reading the heading and decide to either read on or skip it depending on interest, you are given the right to do that. I am good to you right?? HaHa. just joking. getting serious.

NOW
It's raining at Yishun at this time, 2248hrs. Moderate-strong winds was blowing just now, but it had just down-sized to low-moderate wind which drastically chill the whole flat(apartment) down. It's that kind of weather that creates an atmosphere you wish that you have a cuppa of hot chocolate and play your beloved PSP games, read your favourite book and spend some quiet time alone while listening to the rain. Yea, it's cool but then life isn't a fantasy in reality. I have my sister disrupting my peace with her Sentosa-holiday plans. That does not help a brother doing his schoolwork and trying to finish projects. On top of that, Mom and Dad just reach home and starts asking loads of questions. It's good to talk, but seriously now's not the time. The thing i hate most of these situations is that I cannot talk back and ask them to buzz off. I admit that i am conditioned to reply to their conversation for 2 main reasons; one is that this is the short half an hour i get o talk to them in a day and if i don't talk to them, they might send me off to temples to get 'holy; advice thinking i am nuts. So that sums up the NOW part.

ZingO
As i mentioned before, ZingO is too integrated into my life for me not to blog about it and surprisingly, you can Google my blog by typing in ZingO Drums. LOL to that. Recently, after Death Of A Hero participation, came "FlipSide". Initially, most of us dreaded this performance as the time period for this performance and it's practice is supposedly our REST period. And the requirements are tough. A 30 minute performance of fun and light-hearted performance. WHOA! That was not what we are used to, stepping out of the comfort zone was tough, but luckily there was Death Of A Hero to help with that.

As time and practices went past us in our course of preparation, things went rapidly fast and the first performance was up. ZingO has the limitation in areas of "seeing things as audience". If we are all equipped with it, i doubt we will be drumming, but we have good friends to help with that. Benjamin, Doris and Zenna came and watch our impromptu/last-minute-changed performance on the first night. On a side note, Pui Yee got her photography friends and watch the first show as well. Trying to get the photos from her ASAP, and might post a few up.

The first show can be considered a disaster, "the flow was not oriented", "it was a flat show", "like ACES day" (internal comment), *applause was weak*. You know, all the sign and symptoms of a weak performance started surfacing during the show. As a performer, during the show, I have to act happy rather then be happy. HAIZ. deep depression.

But with comments and advice form Benjamin and Doris, Chun Ann (who have to credited for the script,drumming and choreography and communicating with the Esplanade personnel) rearranged the performance and the next day, the whole performance is different. Not to say that chun ann should be gloating, I'm just crediting not praising. There is a difference between the two. The saying goes "Singaporeans can't be praised or else they will ya-ya-banana."

perhaps after the first performance, due to low morale of a lousy show, everyone had the mental preparation to work hard and suffer more. In other word, the whole performers that day were more focused and extra efforts were imputed to training and performance. I like that; it re-ignited the dying flame of performer, a group and a passion. It felt like our performance at Thomas CC some time ago after seeing a Japanese group performed. Our spirits at that CC were charged up and later, we put up a great show, or so as the audience said.

After the second performance then i truly realise the importance of this state of mind, of being low in moral and wanting to do better. According to Shi Xiong's Terminology, it's call the "suffering" attitude, the willingness to give in more and not be complacent. However, the crux of this attitude is that it is hard to create artificially, easier to let the environment to create it. With the dependence of the environment factors, it reduced the control-bility. What we can do is to remind us constantly the two incident of what happened and not allowing it to re0occur.

The second performance won praises and applause from the audience. my statement to the second show is that "We won back our esteem as ZingO." Done as a group and each individual gave more form what they normally does. maybe that's ZingO. The only two regrets are that we done a bad show on the first day and those who watched the first show may have a bad impression on us, especially pui yee, who even brought her friends. haiz, can't be help. Just hope to get the first performance de photos from her asap. Miss Chee pui Yee, pls try to keep your evenings free for coffee meeting.

SchoolWork
"One minute spent is worth two minutes spent from May 20th to June 29th" that summarize my school life with 2 courses compressed to be finished in half a semester. It is really hectic and i'm taking a break from school work to blog, just in case if you were wondering. Research papers due dates are really coming close and both group de draft one are not out yet (I'm am partially responsible for that), so 4 times the hardwork now. Shall not talk too much to create boredom.

MISC
went to watch "auto auto" on sunday night, before the Human Resources Management mid-term exam. You know those days that you let your irrational-ism get the better side of you? It was what happened during the past weekend and the "auto auto" performance was to tell myself that i had to get back my rational-ism. but it was a enjoyable weekend with fun performance, as a performer as well as a audience. Watching a Car being transformed into a "grand Piano" is absolutely great. the whole show is great, the lights, technical aids, performer's effort, script, props were greatly used. Well, maybe not that great, there's one thing i am picking on and that is the main performer's energy level dropped when his co-performer did a error in smashing the window instead of creating a convertible with 4 windows. That's how i saw it, different people have different views thou.

Alright, this post have been posted in an condensed manner, and i have to get back to research papers.

till next time!!

ONg LAi
"Life's a PERFORMANCE"

That bad

Hello!

Ok, good news people!! i'm not blogging because i am feeling down, emo or sad by life events.

Wahaha, surprising huh? especially to perry, who highlighted to me that my blog sounds all so emo and sad. well, my blog is kinda like me with only my negative feelings written down. Or to say that i dun wanna or dun have the motivation to blog about the happy things about my life. It's like telling people what i want and this form of self-disclosure is kind of threatening. Just thinking people know you well enough to predict your behaviour and how you think is a scary thought, and this form of power, is better left to people who i interact with face to face and in the first and second circles of my social circles (i think i have 5 circles) and not to people who i have never seen before and may use this power to control me. [Definition class-- Power: the ability to exert control over someone to do what he wishes]

But then today, i think i am going to make an exception, thanks to Suh Seung Won and her wonderful mom. Today, technically yesterday, i got a bag of kimchi (for those who don't know what it is, fermented Chinese cabbage, Korean style) from Seung Won!! she brought it to class for me!! it stinks a little but then we ensured that we wrapped it well enough to not bring other Kimchi fans to a state of exhilaration, like i did when i saw her with the Kimchi and smelt it. wahahahah. i had to wrap it up for another reason and that is to keep the kimchi chill until i got home at 1900hrs. when i reached home and tasted it, i was feeling happy in a way that i have not felt for perhaps 1 year, i suppose.

THE POWER OF KIMCHI!!

the taste was superb; the blandness of the Chinese cabbage is being infused with the spiciness and tint of sourness of the Korean seasoning is very well balanced. just the scent/stench of the kimchi was enough to cause arousal and upon tasting, all my taste buds were close to over-reacting. if they could talk, i think i would have been told hurry cook some rice to eat with kimchi. haha, luckily there was still some self control governing my mental processes.

actually kimchi has another meaning to me as well, perhaps that's what accounts for the one year absence of exhilaration in me. but then, i guess, only i know it well and partially regret it well.. but then history can't be altered.

i was telling Yi Fen, that for my birthday, i don't mind receiving Kimchi, at least dun expect me to carry it around (that contradicts with what i told Valentia about my bag being heavy with kimchi but i dun mind because it is kimchi. lol.) haha, people, you know what to do!! i' joking, seriously.

That's the happy part of me. after reading so much, there might be one idea popping in your mind right now-- "wa seh, YJ/ONg LAi is so easy satisfied with Kimchi. superficial guy".I'm not blaming you for coming to that conclusion about me. however, that's why i dun like to blog about the happy stuff about my life, cause people judge easily and jump to conclusions. I don't ask for much (it's a matter of perspective) and sometimes, i'm amused by how little things can make me feel in different ways. like kimchi with exhilaration and drums with serious thinking.

"oh well, isn't is the same for the emo stuff you posted in your blog before?"

hell yea, it is.

the happenings in my life is only partially posted on my blog, and it may not be totally true, what i post and what i experience. It may be the high intensity part of my life that is recorded here, but life's does consist more than just the intensified parts, there's the not-so- and not- intensified part of life to moderate these emotional away.

All i'm trying to express here is to not only depend on my blog to read me, although it maybe a good guide to follow along.

i'm losing coherence here with all these free writing.

ending here. but before that,

-ZingO Performance at Esplanade's Flipside!

-6th and 7th of June 2008 2200hrs @ the PowerHouse (outdoors)

-Flipside is organised by Esplanade, Theatres on the Bays to show case the fun side of the arts.

-ZingO will be experimenting with a fun and light-hearted style of festival drumming.

*magic word appearing*

--fREE aDMISSION--

-pls do come and support if you are free and interested.

YuJun/ONg LAi
"life's a performance"

confusion?

Harlow friends.

sorry for not updating my blog for a long time; not posting new entries, not changing the skin, not updating my tunes, etc. I know you'll, if not already gotten bored with my blog after coming to my blog for the many many times and not seeing anything new. but then i will try to post more often since i figure out that i should set aside more time for myself after the Death of a Hero production.

Things has been rough and fast paced for me right now, with another esplanade performance coming up on 6 & 7 June. We are preparing for this performance without the luxury of time and other resource such as a practice venue. Well, since we have been thrown this challenge, we have to do it. That's what being in ZingO is, able to accept the challenges thrown to you at times you do not expect. However, being thrown challenges is only partially what i have been thinking about, in ZingO.

I'm actually sick of my pathetic GPA of 3.2, but then i ask myself, what activities took away my studies times and lesson time. After that, the next shove of words comes into my ear -- complains of choosing Exams over ZingO. That leads to me questioning myself, was it right to turn up for rehearsals for Death Of a Hero when I had exams the next day, the next week? It all boils down to expectation and priorities; some people can actually forsake family, work for passion but then there are people who remain deeply rooted in the dynamics of their life from passion.

And I wonder if my priorities ans expectation are so empirically different from others that I am being so differentiated and isolated (mentally). "Expectations lead to satisfaction, and not fulfilling the expectation creates dissatisfaction", that's a quote from my textbook. Somehow some sort, i always link my textbook materials to ZingO, thinking how it will apply with the real working world. For that, i actually have to thank ZingO for giving me the chance to imagine things in the business world.

Recently, i am studying Organisation behaviour and it applies to ZingO when it talk about who is in which position and what is happening. Part of it is Restructuring, Exit. Maybe my useful time is up. Once a utility is up, there is no point in managing it, it should be thrashed. Luckily for me, there's NS at the end of the year(supposedly) for me to be thrashed out and then later inspected for further usage. Well, face it, people are hypocritical, when you are useful, you are treated properly and people know where you stand. Otherwise, you know you are losing your status and purpose, at this junction of life why not take a left turn and exit this form of passion?

Confusion right now.

bye.

Annoucement!

Death Of A Hero has successfully ended!!

it is a awesome production created by the hardwork of everyone involved!! Thank you millions to the cast, production team and Drummer boys( as how we are always termed)..

Due to IP of Esplande and Puppet Square, i dun feel safe posting the photos up, sorry for that..

then after the Death of a Hero performance on the last day, i got a sms from XIAO JUN WEN. the sms says that my blog entry (on 10th of April) make it sounds and looks as if xjw has boycotted ZingO.. Hence, you see me here, trying to clear his name.. Out of any intentions, having my blog entry sounding like that is not, i repeat, NOT what i had in mind when i wrote that post.. it was to let you peeps know who asked that question, since many in ZingO are asking the same question and i do not want to cause you thinking hard about who the person is. And if you are one of those people who have an misunderstanding with that post, pls read the following text very carefully. Xjw asked that question only to find out why i, maybe the others involved, why we are able to remain in ZingO under such pressure of a theatre production, with all the rehearsals and expectations. It is not, i repeat, not to serve as a 'boycott' purpose..

Case closed.

ME.

Hello,

I guess I am going to hate myself at a later time, since I should be doing my computer stastics homework (online homework DO NOT work for me and if you are wondering if that's one reason why i'm here, YA) or sleeping and ensuring that i get enough rest for tomorrow, for the rehearsal at Esplande. I'm running out of time but then I'm still a bloody procrasinator.

anyway, i'm in the 'kind-of-feeling-down' mood and i went to hend and told him i want booz. That is seriously unexpected of me. I read all the blogs on my link list and different blogs tells a different story and with their powers combined, it made me feeling down right now. Hmm, especially with Jia Jia's blog, composed in chinese, used a really depressing tone to describe her encountance with the social norms and expectation we have upon our environment. Then reading Myrin's blog, too much jarcon and abbreviation on her blog for me to digest her text but the skin goes "Will you notice me?" plus hend informing me that Zhen's house warming is tomorrow with me being "shrouded in darkness".. No offence to !19 people because even if I knew about the party, I still won't be able to turn up because of drum. You guys know me well enough to realise that an invitation for saturday events won't work on me so you omited me from the invitation list. I understand. Then i move to reading other blogs and finally coming back to mine. It felt, and still do, that I have disconnected from the world. On top of that, Jia Jia mentioned about taking the uncovential route and breaking free from the environmental expectation imposed on us, futhers clog my brain with questions.

Who is Torna?
What is Lobo's vechicle plate number?
Will i further walk away from the convnetial route?
Will i find my identity and position is society?
i want to know.

Pictures from a bus trip from Lavender to Sembawang.

i like this picture, it feels and looks dark.

like the parallel feeing.

my close-up

Nostalgia Clip, no longer in use but still funtion as an Art of History.

ONg LAi aka YuJun

Story Time.

Hello, posting something i received from Shi Ting long ago.

Here it goes,

"My husband is a scientist by profession, I love him for his steady-being nature, and I love the warm feeling while lean against his broad shoulder.Three years in the courtship and now, two years into marriage, I would have to admit, I am getting tired of it, the reasons of me loving him before has now transform into the cause of all the restlessness. I am a sentimental woman and extremely sensitive and exquisite when it comes to relationship and feelings, I yearn for romantic moments, as though a little boy yearning for candy. And my husband, is just a contrast of me, his lack of sensitivity, and of all, inability of bringing romantic moments into our marriage has disheartened me about love.

One day, I finally decided to tell him my decision, that I want a divorce.
'Why?' he asked, shocking.
'I am tired, there aren't reasons for everything in the world' I answered.

He kept silent the whole night, seems to be in deep thoughts the whole night with cigarette lighted all the times.

My feeling of disappointment is getting intense, a man who can't even express his detainment, what else can I hope from him? And finally he asked:' What can I do to change your mind?' Somebody said it right, it's hard to change a person's personality, and I guess, I have started losing faith in him.

Look deep into his eyes and I slowly answered: 'Here is a question, if you can find the answer in my heart, I will change my mind, Let say, I love a flower at a mountain cliff, and we both sure that the making you to pick the flower will cause death, will you do it for me?' He said:' I will give you your answer tomorrow....'My heart just sinks by listening to his respond.

The next morning, he was not around, and I saw a piece of paper with his scratching writing, underneath a glass of warm milk, It goes....Dear,'I would not pick that flower for you, but please allowed me to further explain the reasons” this first lines has already break my heart. I continue reading. 'You can only type with computer and always messed up the programs in the PC, and cries in front of screen, I have to save my fingers so that I can help to restore the programs. You always left the house key behind, I have to save my legs to rush home for opening the door for you. You love travelling but always lose your way in a new city; I have to save my eyes to leads you the way. You always have the cramp whenever your 'good friend' approach every month, I have to save my palm so that I can calm the cramp at your tummy. You like to stays indoor, and I worries that you will be infected by infantile autism. I have to save my mouth to tell you jokes and stories to cure your boredom. You always stared at the computers, and that do no good to your eyes, I have to save my eyes so that when we grow older, I can help to clip your nails, and help to removed those annoying white hairs. I will hold your hand, stroll down the beach, enjoying the sunshine and the beautiful sands... tell you the colour of flowers, just like the glow on your young face... Thus, my dear, before I am sure there is someone who loves you more than I do... I would not pick the flower, and die... 'My tears drop on the letters, and blurred the ink of his hand writing... and I resume my reading...'

And now, dear... you have finished reading my answer, if you are satisfied with these answers, please open the door of our house, I am standing there, with your favourite bread and fresh milk... I rush to pull open the door, and saw his anxious face, with his hand holding tight on the milk and bread.... Oh I am sure no one ever loves me as much, and now I have decided to leave the flower alone...

That's life, or some said, love, when one is surrounded by love, the feeling of excitement fade away, and one tend to ignore the true love lies in between the peace and dullness. Love shows in any form, even a very little and corny form, it has never been a model, it could be the most incurious form... flowers, romantic moments is only the buckish formed on the surface of the relationship.Under all this, the pillar of truelove stands... and that's our life...I hope everyone enjoyed reading it... love, but not words win the arguments..." *changed colour for Zi Ming.

touching story. even reading it time after time, it still induce the feeling to be more serious in a relation; looking back and finding myself foolish.

pls do comment. thanks.

ONg LAi

Death of a Hero.

Hello!
doing advertising on my blog here..

This is a story about a Hero, a prophecy, and a quest to rid the world of all evil. It is also a story about the 100th Demon. the cause of all chaos, the maker of the Hero.
Will the Hero fall when he meet the 100th Demon, the greatest of them all?



Title: Death of a Her0
Date: 1-3 May 2008, Thursday to Saturday
Time: 8pm to approx. 9.10pm (this is a 70 minutes play but due to the 'live' nature, time may vary slightly
Venue: Esplanade Theatre Studio
Ticket Price: $25 (concession for students, NSF and senior citizens: $20)
Performed in Mandarin, English and some dialects as well.
Advisory:This production contains coarse language.

Why should you go??

-This is a play with humor, meaning, horror, good vs evil and romance.
-Chun Ann (model for the poster), Tony aka Hiu Tung, Ruo Han, myself and some other ex-CCHYians will be performing some minor roles and handling the percussion music, hope you will support.
-May 1st is Labor Day, supposedly, everyone would be free. Otherwise there's Friday and Saturday!!

I will be involved in this play playing some of the percussion music and minor roles in this 70 minute play brought to you by The Puppet Square and percussion music by ZingO. Due to the fact that you are seeing only the front of this flyer, i have listed down the details about the play below. This is keeping my life pretty busy on top of schooling, a lot of hard work and efforts and been put into this play, so i hope you guys and ladies can go support if interested.

Thanks.

ONg LAi

Dreams

Harlow!!

been long since i have not blogged.. peeps who missed my blog entries, i apologise. But the person who might be affected is myself, looking back in life and regretting it when things are forgotten.

Hence,i'm here to record my life down.

For the past weeks it has been kind of hectic for me, both mental and physical; getting more quick-tempered and getting really weak (cough+ flu+ heatiness currently) as a main result of not getting enough sleep. Why you might ask, but if you have read ruo han or zi ming (new)blog or tony or edvwin's blog, you'll know the answer. Life has been filled with Drum practice and Drama rehearsal. So much that my MSN nick has been changed to "Yu Jun is blind to the obvious, On the edge of breaking down and Missing out personal life. However, for his (artist's)sake, will persevere and hope that others won't mind and support 'Death of A Hero' ".. That is basically a summary of my life and emotions. According to Sing Chun, i'm 'seow on' drums now: Wed-teach YYSS drums, Thur-Drama rehearsal, Fri-Drama rehearsal, Sat- Drum practice in the morning, Drama in the evening, Sun-work for family, Mon-teach Drum at YYSS.. hmm, Tuesday is DAY-OFF!! well, my week routine is basically disturbed. but nonetheless, i will push myself to the limit in hope that the return sense of achievement will be good.

then yesterday after the YOG appreciation dinner with some ZingO-ians at Orchard Hotel, with a tummy fulled of average tasting food, it was only a short while before i dozed off to get rest, expecting to get well this morning. During the sleep from 2300hrs to 0830hrs, i recall one dream that i felt really good. That's the strongest motivation for me to post this blog. Perhaps due to the fact that i have not had such a long sleep for ages and i could snooze after my phone rang in the alarm mode that i can recall the dream. The content of the dream is personal, so i won't go into the details, but roughly, it was a departure and then i found the person (read: non-human entity, just came to me in a human form). When the person left with me, i got that feeling that still lingers and resides in me now. I've been thinking about the dream all th day; during breakfast, during wearing contact lens, during taking the bus, while looking the gorgeous girl at the counter, during lectures, during lunch, well, you get my point.

What leaves me pondering is should i look for this person? i've never seen this person before, i cannot remember the look on the face, i cannot remember the feature, only the feeling. Hmm, generally the majority of life would just brush off my question by saying that it's just a dream and just that, nothing else. But irrationally, i feel the urge to ponder over the question further unlike the majority and hopefully get a answer or direction.

Another thing that i wanna record down would be a talk that i had with xiao jun wen, or rather an answer that he dug out off me during dinner. he asked "why are you still in ZingO?" Half stunned and halfway in thinking mode, i gave several reasons(7 actually) why i am still in ZingO. i have the temptation of writing an research paper to support my ideas and reasons. well, if i have had the time, i would. (trust me, i'm not being lazy here. maybe i'll work on it during the holidays) The origin of this temptation actually come from me wanting to answer the long-un-answered-question and to let my other friends who have undefined plans to know what i feel and determine if we have common ground, common reasons for us being in ZingO. Some of the reasons i highlighted are as followes.

1. the Zodiacs are still here in ZingO
2. i would not have a life without being involved in ZingO (read: i devoted my life at ZingO)
3. there is a sense of achievement when accomplishing the tasks and performance on hand.
4. i can learn a lot of things (drama, props making, drums, etc) from being actively involved in ZingO
5. Passion

that's all for today, as well as class ends.

ONg LAi

I need to breathe.

Hello there!!

It has been a really long time since i did a proper blog entry for the reasons that i had to divert my blogging hours to my COMMS blog which has ended, second being that there are lots of exams and quizzes, and lastly, it's the project-ing buzzing my time around. To summarize, school matters.

Hmm, after such a long period without a decent entry in my blog, i wonder if i will look back in life and find missing chapters in my life (or not remember them at all). Hence, in the midst of projects, i found today and tonight to unwind all the frustrations and pissed-off emotions with friends and blogging i suppose.

From the last proper post, i took my mid terms exams (scored only 60s and 70s), i went to drama, drum and wushu (learnt many types of stretching and warm up), watched movies (AUGUST RUSH!), went to performance(at PS), worn my body out, and did group projects which made me really fed-up at times.

However, i faced with another rejection of a date. Intially, taking the rejection into my stride, it was all ok here and there and hopes were still high. However, as time pass by and projects and other matters of life flood my timetable, i placed a less significant on this issue, which made me disappointed, followed by disencouraged by "i'm not interested". Anyway, i will not give up!! have to re evaluate my strategies.

All of the above made kinda suffocated in life and today was breathing day. Many people, when getting depressed, allow their life to sink down to the drains and then live miserably and they PRAY(Push Until Something Happens). As the typical Leo, our reactions to these situation are different. TO feed our ego and restore pride as the King, we live life better than before. I allowed my wallet strings (male version of purse strings) loose and indulged with clothes. Thereafter, i asked janice, ruo han and tony out to sing KTV. However, Tony could not turn up die to sickness of the body. ANway, we had fun at TOP-ONE in bugis. it was relatively cheaper and the hardware was definitely better than K-box. The software still has room for improvements.

And tonight, no project emails that can send my blood boiling and personally, i want to take a breather and rest early tonight.

ONg LAi

P.S. Evan, i'm making this clear to you, I WILL TRY HARDER!

NICE SONG!!