after sleeping at 4am and waking up at 1pm, I packed my bag for tonight and finally forced myself to take a seat here to continue to voice out my opinions about Change. The reason why i used the word 'forced' is because i need to go out to do some shopping, to replenish some basic items, but! but it's raining cats and dogs out there. Even the interface of Gmail got affected by the rain and my mails are supposedly wet and the tree i planted beside the mails is tortured by the wind. I don't suppose that many will get what i mean but good work Gmail, the idea is good.
now coming back to my observation to change,
NOTE: pls take some time to read the previous entry if you have not. Else you might get lost while continue reading. Or you will diminish the 4 hour long of blogging efforts I put in to come up with the previous entry, even if I multi-tasked with reading and sending mails and even checking out my facebook account during the 4 hour. yes, just scroll down to read it and scroll up later if you have done so.
Planning to use 10minutes or so to compose the rest of this entry. Not lazy but just that I'm faced with the scarcity of time.
Went to Drum practice yesterday slightly after lunchtime without the lunch. Greeted more prominently by the white mirror walls and black flooring for dance, I was actually hoping I could have saw more of the drummers inside the studio. Basically, poly exams period are here and friends can afford to go for concerts and play computer games, but not turn up for drum practice. Yes, it's the issue of priority again but then i guess i can attribute to the reasoning that Drum for my fellow drumming mates have changed too. It's heartwarming to know that Tony actually misses Ann and myself after we gotten our heads shaved and entered into a total institute, even though i still question how much in relative I'm being missed. NS or not, people will change to the changing environment, but i guess, this group has too much politics that a slight change that caused people to face unfamiliarity has escalated to cause the butterfly effect upon the smallest misunderstandings.
Is this what I, or even what we will like to see?
We all know that personal bias is always present but at the different situations that the degree of accepting the bias is different. In our group, each person is attributed with a differing degree of trust by the so-called supremacy. Then again we know roughly that who gets a higher degree and who gets less but at times we feel disadvantage when we try to do things that we would like to do in order to improve the group. Let's all use all our frustrations to turn the tables (literally) and hope to create a mess of things within our white walls and black floors. What good will that do? Communication patterns in our group has been historically and forcefully made in such a way that sitting down to talk or mass sending of mails does not yield much results. Tell me what other lexis (mode of delivery) can we engage in? the grapevine or symbols? All of us need to talk, talk like we have never talk before! Many attempts have been made for this kind of talks, we know it and experienced it. not surprisingly, the yield is much known too. At this point, I am picturing an image of everyone one day getting so vented up (while still continuing to engage in the conversation) that we get on our individual feet to pull some punches or open our mouths to spew some form of low-level of verbal abuse. Well, at least the energy will be there.
Up to this point, I would like to highlight that there is no absolute solution to what we have gotten ourselves into but more than nothing I would like to see change, improvements.
Having heard from the different point of views, no matter how pure or distorted the messaged i received, I see a common goal but not the same means of achieving it. We want a higher artistic value in our form of Art, but each parties insisting on using their methods to do it and with a different purpose behind the common goal. Suggesting that the parties open up and share their methods openly is nearly impossible to achieve because we are not even sure on how and what we are going to do in order to get to what we want. We might or might not have our plans, but at the end of the day, (quoting from some movie) what will happen is that the plan is not going to stick to plan.
When you have gotten sick of being either of the 4 characters of Change, then you turn yourself into the leader of the 4, become the Agent of Change. Affect the change, not be affected by it.
But let our group survive in these times of bad economy and bad situations with the strongest bonds we formed all these years going through shit and puberty.
Coming past the 40minutes mark, need to head down somewhere to buy my underwear and get dinner.
till next book out.
YuJun
Sunday, 22 February 2009
things are changing (Part1)
starting with the title, my mood now is kind of dead and pretty much demoralised with things happening. or changing.
As according to the ancient folklore deeply engraved on the rock-like surface of my brain matter since Intro to Marketing class, it goes like "the only Unchange is Change." Coming to the topic of Change, some people embrace it, some try to reject it, while others deny it and try to ignore it.
In different situations, we all fall into one of, or both of, or seldom all of, the 3 different Change characters; Embracers, Resisters and Aloofs. Embracers take ups what change that comes in their way, adapts fast to it and live life with change. It's not easy but they put it off still. Resisters, as the name suggest do not like change for the fear that change will weaken them or allow them to face unfamiliarity. Aloofs people tries very hard to not pay attention to the changes around them. What is complicated about the Aloofs is that they can be aloof in the Embracers way or the opposite; living the the changes but making minimal efforts to change themselves and Resisters direction is to pay minimal attention to the change and pretend that nothing has change. So all in all, there's 4 different kinds of Change characters.
After the lengthy portion about Change and Change characters, now is the main dish of this entry, also the main motivation for me to sit hours before my laptop in the middle of the night, so as to get some undisturbed blogging time.
Went to a bar at Clark Quay yesterday with PTP buddies. The time spent there did not live up to expectations. The bar was kinda small, something we didn't expect and we made reservations for ten people and those who bothered to show face numbered off to five in the bar. So the first drink came, followed by the finger food and concluded by a second drink. We waited for others to turn up with the concurrent activity of consuming the food and drinks took roughly 2 hours. The wait was boring but what made the evening a real irritant is that we had smokers who popped out to the 'fresh air' outside to take a puff, snoozing their nicotine alarm (you can almost hear the 'ni-coo-tine~','ni-coo-tine~' sound). This broke the small group into smaller groups that did not appreciate the small small group interaction. With agreement, those who was left to freeze to dead with boredom inside the bar settled the bill and headed out to the 'fresh air' area to settle the cash payment to me. Busy with calculations, I thought I would be able to skip or at least selectively block out the disgusting images of my PTP buddies smoking.
Those who have long ago declared themselves to be smokers, although still much disgusted, fared much better when I saw them smoked. What terrified me was Dennis smoking. Didn't knew about his past as a smoker and when he snubbed the cigarette butt that some other guy has passed to him, i unconsciously turned my head back and took a snapshot of the filthy poisonous gas gusting out of his nostrils. I can still see it in my mind. I am promised of this image whenever I see his face and the word 'Dennis'. Yes, personally I feel that I am very much aware of my over-reaction to people smoking but I can't help but to widen my scope to observe the other smokers around. The other bar just beside, the Irish pub just opposite the narrow two lane street, the group standing just outside 7-11 and many many others, suddenly the presence of smokers became so prominent to me that at the back of my brain, I ransacked sociological ideas, marketing explanations and bio psychological and psychological reasoning to reassure myself that what is happening is not a result of them wanting to harm their body but under many many other factors. But I failed. and the normal chants came out of my thought. Let's just hope the drug or drugs (considering how many types of different chemicals there is inside just one stick of cigarettes) carefully packed into the boxes will kill their consumers.
People I mix with are changing. Suddenly, last night i found myself in the company of loads of smokers. Mental note to self to not go drinking with smokers again. or maybe not go to bars and pubs. I shall be a Resister in this scenario, I want to stay true to myself.
Now think, if you were me,
in a situation similar to mine,
in a situation different from mine,
in a situation closely similar to mine,
in a situation vastly different from mine,
what character will you become?
Will you change (or not change) for the better?
As according to the ancient folklore deeply engraved on the rock-like surface of my brain matter since Intro to Marketing class, it goes like "the only Unchange is Change." Coming to the topic of Change, some people embrace it, some try to reject it, while others deny it and try to ignore it.
In different situations, we all fall into one of, or both of, or seldom all of, the 3 different Change characters; Embracers, Resisters and Aloofs. Embracers take ups what change that comes in their way, adapts fast to it and live life with change. It's not easy but they put it off still. Resisters, as the name suggest do not like change for the fear that change will weaken them or allow them to face unfamiliarity. Aloofs people tries very hard to not pay attention to the changes around them. What is complicated about the Aloofs is that they can be aloof in the Embracers way or the opposite; living the the changes but making minimal efforts to change themselves and Resisters direction is to pay minimal attention to the change and pretend that nothing has change. So all in all, there's 4 different kinds of Change characters.
After the lengthy portion about Change and Change characters, now is the main dish of this entry, also the main motivation for me to sit hours before my laptop in the middle of the night, so as to get some undisturbed blogging time.
Went to a bar at Clark Quay yesterday with PTP buddies. The time spent there did not live up to expectations. The bar was kinda small, something we didn't expect and we made reservations for ten people and those who bothered to show face numbered off to five in the bar. So the first drink came, followed by the finger food and concluded by a second drink. We waited for others to turn up with the concurrent activity of consuming the food and drinks took roughly 2 hours. The wait was boring but what made the evening a real irritant is that we had smokers who popped out to the 'fresh air' outside to take a puff, snoozing their nicotine alarm (you can almost hear the 'ni-coo-tine~','ni-coo-tine~' sound). This broke the small group into smaller groups that did not appreciate the small small group interaction. With agreement, those who was left to freeze to dead with boredom inside the bar settled the bill and headed out to the 'fresh air' area to settle the cash payment to me. Busy with calculations, I thought I would be able to skip or at least selectively block out the disgusting images of my PTP buddies smoking.
Those who have long ago declared themselves to be smokers, although still much disgusted, fared much better when I saw them smoked. What terrified me was Dennis smoking. Didn't knew about his past as a smoker and when he snubbed the cigarette butt that some other guy has passed to him, i unconsciously turned my head back and took a snapshot of the filthy poisonous gas gusting out of his nostrils. I can still see it in my mind. I am promised of this image whenever I see his face and the word 'Dennis'. Yes, personally I feel that I am very much aware of my over-reaction to people smoking but I can't help but to widen my scope to observe the other smokers around. The other bar just beside, the Irish pub just opposite the narrow two lane street, the group standing just outside 7-11 and many many others, suddenly the presence of smokers became so prominent to me that at the back of my brain, I ransacked sociological ideas, marketing explanations and bio psychological and psychological reasoning to reassure myself that what is happening is not a result of them wanting to harm their body but under many many other factors. But I failed. and the normal chants came out of my thought. Let's just hope the drug or drugs (considering how many types of different chemicals there is inside just one stick of cigarettes) carefully packed into the boxes will kill their consumers.
People I mix with are changing. Suddenly, last night i found myself in the company of loads of smokers. Mental note to self to not go drinking with smokers again. or maybe not go to bars and pubs. I shall be a Resister in this scenario, I want to stay true to myself.
Now think, if you were me,
in a situation similar to mine,
in a situation different from mine,
in a situation closely similar to mine,
in a situation vastly different from mine,
what character will you become?
Will you change (or not change) for the better?
--to be continued, this post is taking up most of my sleep time, shall continue tomorrow, part 2:Drum Changes--
Monday, 12 January 2009
some free time.
hello people!
have not touched my blog for ages.. today is special because go off day..
hance the extra time to switch on my computer and even blog for you to read..
Time passed really fast and 1 month has passed like that.. Among those who have seen me recently have commented that i look more tan and slimmed down. well, at least all the training paid off.
it is fun i guess, breaking away from the daily routine of going to school and studying. Change of a lifestyle and interacting with more people means something to me.
Haha.. so fast run out of time le.. til next time.. or just call me out for a meal!! hah
YuJun
have not touched my blog for ages.. today is special because go off day..
hance the extra time to switch on my computer and even blog for you to read..
Time passed really fast and 1 month has passed like that.. Among those who have seen me recently have commented that i look more tan and slimmed down. well, at least all the training paid off.
it is fun i guess, breaking away from the daily routine of going to school and studying. Change of a lifestyle and interacting with more people means something to me.
Haha.. so fast run out of time le.. til next time.. or just call me out for a meal!! hah
YuJun
Friday, 5 December 2008
Happy (working) holidays!
Another 12.5 more hours and this semseter will be over.
Watching (or should i say listening) to the last online lecture for the last paper. Woohoo.
Then after 1200hrs tomorrow, it'll be a busy week le.
Saturday(tomorrow):
Watching (or should i say listening) to the last online lecture for the last paper. Woohoo.
Then after 1200hrs tomorrow, it'll be a busy week le.
Saturday(tomorrow):
- 1000hrs-1200hrs :Management Information System Final Exams (which i am not interested in, not prepared and not good at). All the best to me.
- 1230hrs-1500hrs : Drum Practice
- 1700hrs-2130hrs : Part-time Work (Anthropology.)
- 2130hrs- late: KTV somewhere in Town with Janice, Zenna,Doris, Jay, Dannis, two friends of the Doris, Jay and Dannis. Perhaps Tony will come too. Tony please come, i think you'll like Jay and Dannis. haha.
Sunday:
- Morning. Start shopping for CNY? on the account that being in NS won't give me much time to shop for CNY clothes? Or just window shopping ba. haaahahaaaa.
- Afternoon to Late evening. Part-Time Work
Monday:
- Morning. Shopping again. Apart from CNY shopping, still have to get ready for NS, need to get some items, like Ziplock bags, underwear (yes, i'm serious, it's stated on the letter they sent me , under ' you may also bring... "extra underwear"'), a cheap digital watch, etc. Haha, let's hope i can get what i'll need.
- Afternoon to Late evening. Part-time work again.
Tuesday:
- Morning. Nothing planned. Probably going to spend time alone after being so tired of trying to please all the people around involunteerily. Away from crowds and find true self. Crap.
- Afternoon to late evening. Part-time work.
Wednesday:
- Morning. Tie up the loose ends with society i guess. (since NS can be classified as a Total Institution, reminded of Sociology Finals question on Socialization)
- Afternoon. I'm free :]
- Evening. Piano Lesson at 5pm and Dinner with Sean, Sean (yes two seans, not typo), Vincent and Chen Chen for dinner. Somewhat like a Farewell dinner. Haha, good and friendly teammates.
Thrsday:
- Morning. Part-time Work
- Late Afternoon. Rest and Final Preparation for NS (e.g. stare at ceiling and think. LOL)
Friday:
- 0800hrs: Report at the Camp.
- Rest of the day: Well... who knows :]
Well, that's my most accurate schedule to this point of time.
It feels kinda of heart warming that people find time to have dinner with you before you Go into NS. but then you also see that some people don't try hard enough, "oh, you are not free that time ar, see how lor". see how lor followed by not hearing from them anymore. oh well, at least they tried and with my tight and inconvenient schedule, I can't really blame them i guess. well, you can say that i'm guessing real hard.
Studying hard so I can sing without guilt tomorrow. jaja.
Byebye
YuJun aka ONg LAi
Thursday, 27 November 2008
army days.
yes people.
as expected, i've not been successful in getting a silver grade for my NAPFA test.
Hence, i'll be enlisting on 12th Dec 2008, one month extra for PTP (Physical Training Program) and will be released 1 month later!!
Well, i have thought over it. It's actually ok for me to go in early.
why?
as expected, i've not been successful in getting a silver grade for my NAPFA test.
Hence, i'll be enlisting on 12th Dec 2008, one month extra for PTP (Physical Training Program) and will be released 1 month later!!
Well, i have thought over it. It's actually ok for me to go in early.
why?
- it's only a matter of time when you go in. yes, it means freedom for 2 months, but what's the good of the 2 free months when actually sleep and eat and sleep and eat? if that's not your life, it's somewhat like mine, especially during holidays.
- then i get 2 months pay!! more than that i'm getting now working in anthropology. but it's more relaxed and the hours are lesser . yes i know, but let what must come, come!
- and going to re-take my NAPFA over and over again is demoralizing. wasting Wednesday mornings and disgracing myself there for 3 times, i had enough.
- it's a sign that i need proper physical training. from who, the best gym in the country of course.
- and with the lengthen BMT period, i just heard from the instructor at TPY stadium, means a less packed schedule.
all in all, i'm going in early.
put it in the harsh words, i'm one who gives up, a failure but on the optimistic point of view, i'm evaluating my options. (great thinking man) yes, i can almost hear you saying that.
got to go sleep or do more work.
Night pple!
YuJun
Tuesday, 25 November 2008
bowing down to fate.
If i fail to get silver for NAPFA test tomorrow morning again, I shall concede defeat and bow down to destiny. Scarficing my 2 months of freedom.
So tired of disgracing myself at Tao Payoh Stadium over and over again.
YuJun
Monday, 17 November 2008
Avenue Q
Hello People!
Came back home after watching Avenue Q a few hours ago. Enjoyed it a lot, since i burnt my pocket paying for the ticket. It might sound like I'm forcing myself to enjoy the musical, but trust me, IT WAS REALLY GOOD!! I like how the whole show was carefully choreographed, meticulously puppetted(pardon me for the improvised word), handsomely/beautifully designed stage and not forgetting to mention the very sensitive issues about society that were so generously discussed, like porn, straight sex, gay sex, losers, dreams, purpose (or propose) in the light of selfishness, gaining happiness from others' misery, etc.
I think i enjoyed the show so much because of my Sociology course. Hmm, there were some slight glitches i didn't like, but that didn't stop me from loving the show. Like what i told Hwan and Zi Ming, luckily we saw the last show, if not, i might be back to watch it again. Wait a second, i burnt my pocket remember? and I told myself I'll watch HSM3 again, but i didn't. So even if i was given a chance to watch the musical again, i doubt I'll do so.. haha..
And watching the show with friends from both university and Drums were kinda cool, since i don't have time to think to myself (in other's point of view, EMO) since i have to keep interacting with the 2 sides, a pity both sides were kinda shy, but who won't be in that kind of setting?
Got a necklace from TopMan while waiting people to turn up. Hmm, it was quite a steal. It's a bolt design, and the actual price was $23, but do to the fashion vs time effect, i manage to get it for $9. Well, that just tells you how much TopMan is earning from you from every item they sell you, remembering that no businesses will( or should not) ever make a loss from a transaction. Painful outlook at business. Hmm, pretend you didn't see this sentence if it bothers you.
Talking about shopping, I'll but MayDay's album in support of their very nice song in the latest album Although i burnt my pocket after Avenue Q. Never been a great fan of them, but this album (after hearing over the radio and other sources) proves to be compacted with great songs that cause a tingling sensation in me. Great Work Mayday.
Then Yesterday, we had our performance at RP, Reflection Concert is the name if I didn't remember wrongly, which is part of their Art Festival. Erm. the performances was good and our performance was great, according to the Art Director of RP, the other performers as well as the audience who innocently laughed at our performance but was awed by the end of the performance. it was heartwarming that we had both stage support (edwin, teck Li and others) and audience support (norman, russell and friends)
I can't help it but can i complain about the performance? (note to self: why are you even asking anyway? Can they reply after you post this blog with your near-to-perfectionist complains?) Well, I'm not a perfectionist, but i do want to see quality in things we (as a group) do. Especially on stage. For me, the stage is not limited to the timber which we step on, bounded by curtains, brightly lit up by spotlights and all other kind of lights being switched on and focused on in a big room which resembles the Cerebow machine in the Movie X-men which is Professor X's XL version mind reading device.
The stage is when we put on our Group (black with white prints) shirt and people recognise you not by individuals but a group. The Art Director told his students, if they perform on stage, it doesn't matter who the performers are, at the end of the day, the audience will give credit or disservice to RP and RP only. Well, I totally agree with him. So when being recognised as a group, I think our performance has started. With this mindset, every word you say, every move you make, the audience can see. And the audience is not only those who manages to get the tickets and fill up the seats in the theatre, the audience is everyone who can see you as the group member. Oh well, then who is the audiences you may ask.. Let's see, the RP art director, technical Staff, Stage managers, Stage Hands, Arts Administrators, Other performers, etc.. these people are so much different from the normal audience mentioned earlier. they get to see your item over and over again, and worst, your silly behaviour when you are around them. on stage, off stage, back stage, dressing rooms, toilets, during dinner, loading bay and even while you take photos! More irritating than anything else, is Standing on stage, with or without the spotlights on, like your daily self (jokes about others that are irritating, isolating yourself in a corner of the room and sleeping to look pathetic, taking other performers seats, not paying attention to others around you, curse and swear, spending money on food like food money is never an issue, etc) on stage is totally outrageous (at least for me) and idling on stage makes me wanna punch you off the stage. so that you won't disgrace yourself, or should i say, our group any further.
I sound like I want to create a pseudo culture for our group, but what i hope (to the highest degree this word can be used and yet not to the level of the word 'want') to see is that we can be sensible in front of all our audience. Being a performer, forget about your personal space until you go home and take off that black shirt with white prints! Think of what image will be formed from every move you make, every word you say, even if the other party might not understand your language. Be more self conscious. Take on and embrace your role on stage, whether Helper or Performer, know the purpose of your role and take back all your complains and play the role well, as ZingO.
Ahh~~~~~~~~ feel so much better after bottling this up for close to 30 hours or so since yesterday's first run through. although i should be sleeping
and one more tiny complain, performers' food need to be improved on. BAD FOOD LEADS TO WORSE FEELINGS!
Going to sleep.
Night people!!
ONg LAi
ps. need to further work on my NAPFA performance.
Came back home after watching Avenue Q a few hours ago. Enjoyed it a lot, since i burnt my pocket paying for the ticket. It might sound like I'm forcing myself to enjoy the musical, but trust me, IT WAS REALLY GOOD!! I like how the whole show was carefully choreographed, meticulously puppetted(pardon me for the improvised word), handsomely/beautifully designed stage and not forgetting to mention the very sensitive issues about society that were so generously discussed, like porn, straight sex, gay sex, losers, dreams, purpose (or propose) in the light of selfishness, gaining happiness from others' misery, etc.
I think i enjoyed the show so much because of my Sociology course. Hmm, there were some slight glitches i didn't like, but that didn't stop me from loving the show. Like what i told Hwan and Zi Ming, luckily we saw the last show, if not, i might be back to watch it again. Wait a second, i burnt my pocket remember? and I told myself I'll watch HSM3 again, but i didn't. So even if i was given a chance to watch the musical again, i doubt I'll do so.. haha..
And watching the show with friends from both university and Drums were kinda cool, since i don't have time to think to myself (in other's point of view, EMO) since i have to keep interacting with the 2 sides, a pity both sides were kinda shy, but who won't be in that kind of setting?
Got a necklace from TopMan while waiting people to turn up. Hmm, it was quite a steal. It's a bolt design, and the actual price was $23, but do to the fashion vs time effect, i manage to get it for $9. Well, that just tells you how much TopMan is earning from you from every item they sell you, remembering that no businesses will( or should not) ever make a loss from a transaction. Painful outlook at business. Hmm, pretend you didn't see this sentence if it bothers you.
Talking about shopping, I'll but MayDay's album in support of their very nice song in the latest album Although i burnt my pocket after Avenue Q. Never been a great fan of them, but this album (after hearing over the radio and other sources) proves to be compacted with great songs that cause a tingling sensation in me. Great Work Mayday.
Then Yesterday, we had our performance at RP, Reflection Concert is the name if I didn't remember wrongly, which is part of their Art Festival. Erm. the performances was good and our performance was great, according to the Art Director of RP, the other performers as well as the audience who innocently laughed at our performance but was awed by the end of the performance. it was heartwarming that we had both stage support (edwin, teck Li and others) and audience support (norman, russell and friends)
I can't help it but can i complain about the performance? (note to self: why are you even asking anyway? Can they reply after you post this blog with your near-to-perfectionist complains?) Well, I'm not a perfectionist, but i do want to see quality in things we (as a group) do. Especially on stage. For me, the stage is not limited to the timber which we step on, bounded by curtains, brightly lit up by spotlights and all other kind of lights being switched on and focused on in a big room which resembles the Cerebow machine in the Movie X-men which is Professor X's XL version mind reading device.
The stage is when we put on our Group (black with white prints) shirt and people recognise you not by individuals but a group. The Art Director told his students, if they perform on stage, it doesn't matter who the performers are, at the end of the day, the audience will give credit or disservice to RP and RP only. Well, I totally agree with him. So when being recognised as a group, I think our performance has started. With this mindset, every word you say, every move you make, the audience can see. And the audience is not only those who manages to get the tickets and fill up the seats in the theatre, the audience is everyone who can see you as the group member. Oh well, then who is the audiences you may ask.. Let's see, the RP art director, technical Staff, Stage managers, Stage Hands, Arts Administrators, Other performers, etc.. these people are so much different from the normal audience mentioned earlier. they get to see your item over and over again, and worst, your silly behaviour when you are around them. on stage, off stage, back stage, dressing rooms, toilets, during dinner, loading bay and even while you take photos! More irritating than anything else, is Standing on stage, with or without the spotlights on, like your daily self (jokes about others that are irritating, isolating yourself in a corner of the room and sleeping to look pathetic, taking other performers seats, not paying attention to others around you, curse and swear, spending money on food like food money is never an issue, etc) on stage is totally outrageous (at least for me) and idling on stage makes me wanna punch you off the stage. so that you won't disgrace yourself, or should i say, our group any further.
I sound like I want to create a pseudo culture for our group, but what i hope (to the highest degree this word can be used and yet not to the level of the word 'want') to see is that we can be sensible in front of all our audience. Being a performer, forget about your personal space until you go home and take off that black shirt with white prints! Think of what image will be formed from every move you make, every word you say, even if the other party might not understand your language. Be more self conscious. Take on and embrace your role on stage, whether Helper or Performer, know the purpose of your role and take back all your complains and play the role well, as ZingO.
Ahh~~~~~~~~ feel so much better after bottling this up for close to 30 hours or so since yesterday's first run through. although i should be sleeping
and one more tiny complain, performers' food need to be improved on. BAD FOOD LEADS TO WORSE FEELINGS!
Going to sleep.
Night people!!
ONg LAi
ps. need to further work on my NAPFA performance.
Sunday, 9 November 2008
blog goes on.
Hello folks!
(the greeting is learned from my lecturer in Management information system)
Hmm, been real long since I posted about me toying with the idea of not continuing this blog. Well, during this period, i set up a blog on word press and even have one entry! Having another blog on word press made me realise something, I need the privacy in the virtual world. Hence, i'll continue with Drum-boarding along side with my word press blog.
"so what? he have two blogs, then?!"
well, that was my imagined reaction to any readers who talk in the street gangster slang (me thinking too much, i guess). Anyway, the difference will probably be the content that i'll put into the blogs.
The reasons of me maintaining this blog is that I still have my readers (read: friends who put time to take a look on how i'm doing lately) and it serves as a form of connections to these readers. Many of them just read, and do not comment. I guess it's the comment box being a indicator of presence and people this age just like to know about things, but are unwilling to expose themselves. Second guess of the post. Bottom line, friends who knows me for who i am, please put up with my horrible English as well as my crude way of looking at and living life. I'm continuing so we don't lose contact. Yes, i'll go visit your blogs to show my presence sometime, when i'm able to breath from my pile of schoolwork.
to be continued.
gong for dinner with family.
ONg LAi
(the greeting is learned from my lecturer in Management information system)
Hmm, been real long since I posted about me toying with the idea of not continuing this blog. Well, during this period, i set up a blog on word press and even have one entry! Having another blog on word press made me realise something, I need the privacy in the virtual world. Hence, i'll continue with Drum-boarding along side with my word press blog.
"so what? he have two blogs, then?!"
well, that was my imagined reaction to any readers who talk in the street gangster slang (me thinking too much, i guess). Anyway, the difference will probably be the content that i'll put into the blogs.
The reasons of me maintaining this blog is that I still have my readers (read: friends who put time to take a look on how i'm doing lately) and it serves as a form of connections to these readers. Many of them just read, and do not comment. I guess it's the comment box being a indicator of presence and people this age just like to know about things, but are unwilling to expose themselves. Second guess of the post. Bottom line, friends who knows me for who i am, please put up with my horrible English as well as my crude way of looking at and living life. I'm continuing so we don't lose contact. Yes, i'll go visit your blogs to show my presence sometime, when i'm able to breath from my pile of schoolwork.
to be continued.
gong for dinner with family.
ONg LAi
Monday, 20 October 2008
the end of one is the birth of another,
I'm talking about my blog.
Been toying with the idea of changing my blog URL to a secret address, or maybe deleting it.
hmm, too many stuff that are not meant to be said are said here. just a 2 year old blog can cause so much offences.
Maybe i just complain too much, but let's hope the new blog will be more general and personal.
oh ya, did i tell why I'm changing my blog?
I'm moving on to the next stage.
NS days.
received my enlistment letter a few days back. Going to commando on 12 DEC. Well, this is the tentative date, if i pass my NAPFA, then it's a different date i suppose.
Well, look out for my Next blog ba. doubt I'll be changing the URL, just different content. :]
ONg LAi
I'm talking about my blog.
Been toying with the idea of changing my blog URL to a secret address, or maybe deleting it.
hmm, too many stuff that are not meant to be said are said here. just a 2 year old blog can cause so much offences.
Maybe i just complain too much, but let's hope the new blog will be more general and personal.
oh ya, did i tell why I'm changing my blog?
I'm moving on to the next stage.
NS days.
received my enlistment letter a few days back. Going to commando on 12 DEC. Well, this is the tentative date, if i pass my NAPFA, then it's a different date i suppose.
Well, look out for my Next blog ba. doubt I'll be changing the URL, just different content. :]
ONg LAi
Monday, 29 September 2008
updates
hello.
done some updates on my blog. Pls take some time and view and listen to the music and videos inside the orange boxes above. Thanks.
riverfest (so is F1. yea.) is over and reality from school hits hard. i get the impression that I am a social loafer! bloody hell, i hate loafers and here i am, one big fat social loafer. feeling so bad about this today, even worse that last night at Clarke Quay. gosh.
but i won't complain for the sake of complaining. will prove to myself and others that i am not a social loafer.
Yu Jun
done some updates on my blog. Pls take some time and view and listen to the music and videos inside the orange boxes above. Thanks.
riverfest (so is F1. yea.) is over and reality from school hits hard. i get the impression that I am a social loafer! bloody hell, i hate loafers and here i am, one big fat social loafer. feeling so bad about this today, even worse that last night at Clarke Quay. gosh.
but i won't complain for the sake of complaining. will prove to myself and others that i am not a social loafer.
Yu Jun
Wednesday, 24 September 2008
blogthings.com
hi guys,
getting really bored from watching online lectures. hence, i went to blog surf and came across this old site i used to go to and did a few of the 'quizzes'.
Supposedly, it is meant to tell you more about myself.
so, is this good? I can't even say how true this reflects about me. Deep down, i find common ground with the above results, but according to Cooleys, my reflecting glass mirrors(friends, family, others around me), don't quite suggest that the results are true..
maybe that's why i like to be alone most of the time. hmm.
getting really bored from watching online lectures. hence, i went to blog surf and came across this old site i used to go to and did a few of the 'quizzes'.
Supposedly, it is meant to tell you more about myself.
| You Are Bare Feet |
 Even wearing shoes can be a little too constraining for you at times! You are very comfortable in your own skin. You are one of the most real people around. You don't have anything to hide. Open and accepting, you are willing to discuss or entertain almost any topic. You are a very tolerant person. You are accepting and not judgmental. You should live: Somewhere warm You should work: At your own business, where you can set the rules |
What Kind of Shoe Are You?
so, is this good? I can't even say how true this reflects about me. Deep down, i find common ground with the above results, but according to Cooleys, my reflecting glass mirrors(friends, family, others around me), don't quite suggest that the results are true..
maybe that's why i like to be alone most of the time. hmm.
You Are 83% Perfectionist |
 You're a total perfectionist. So go ahead and congratulate yourself on a "perfect" score. The truth is, everyone is sick of living up to your standards. And you're probably even sick them yourself. |
Are you sick of my expectations?
Your Personality Is |
 Idealist (NF) You are a passionate, caring, and unique person. You are good at expressing yourself and sharing your ideals. You are the most compassionate of all types and connect with others easily. Your heart tends to rule you. You can't make decisions without considering feelings. You seek out other empathetic people to befriend. Truth and authenticity matters in your friendships. In love, you give everything you have to relationships. You fall in love easily. At work, you crave personal expression and meaning in your career. With others, you communicate well. You can spend all night talking with someone. As far as your looks go, you've likely taken the time to develop your own personal style. On weekends, you like to be with others. Charity work is also a favorite pastime of yours. |
Note: this is 70% true.
| The Part of You That No One Sees |
 People feel like they really don't know the true you... Yet they're still drawn to you, almost by magnetic force. Underneath it all, you don't even really feel like you know yourself. It's easier to put on a front than really think about your life's purpose. You tend to seem pretentious, but it's just a mechanism you use to push people away. |
hmm, lots of common ground found. I find this amazingly true.
| You Should Play the Piano |
 You find music to be an escape. And you'd like to be relaxed and comfortable when you're making it. You're very innovative, and you have a unique way of knowing what may sound beautiful. There's a strong possibility that you could compose some of your own work songs quite easily. While you have a lot of creative energy, you are also serious and conscientious. Your musical talent needs time, practice, and lots of privacy to flourish. Your dominant personality characteristic: your painstaking attention to detail Your secondary personality characteristic: your natural tendency to be whimsical |
What Musical Instrument Should You Play?
Whoots, i picked the correct instrument to pick up. 75% alike.
Well, 5 quizzes to let you know more about me.
til next time!
ONg LAi
Friday, 19 September 2008
Hello!
look at this photo.
Once again, my Soul camera has been put to use. Doris commented that I look bloated, but i can assure that it is due to the angle.
when i took the photo, i saw a peaceful and tranquil Me in the picture.
how i wish i can attain that state of emotion most of the times.
hence, i put this on my blog to remind myself to work hard to be peaceful.
Seems so hard.
bye~
ONg LAi
Monday, 15 September 2008
ZingO
For Fame and Glory,
We perform.
For Friends and Respect,
We unite.
But for what do we perserve?
I think it's for achievement.
But come to think of it,
what have I achieved?
Sunday, 7 September 2008
school started.
Harlow people.
as the title suggests, school have started, then sorry to my blog and readers, for not posting frequently (read: very long no post le).
well the pressure of studies have definitely set in to squeeze me. Also, projects comes one by one and compact your social time. on top of that, i'm planning to get a part-time job, both for the money and experience. other demands of life also make it so hard to breath and sleep properly, such as drum and family. Luckily, there's always music (drum and piano), arts and Starbucks to give me some life juice to ensure that i can move around, either voluntarily or reluctantly.
for school, doing project with some new and familiar people is really tough. because you see ideas coming form 2 sides of the spectrum and that those ideas are impossible to compromise, then you decide whose ideas you should support, or to kill that is. hmm, maybe it's time to set some rules and force my way down on them. and i've been behind the online lecture videos, need to find more time to look at them. wonder if i can manage my time well.
managing time has been posting problems,since i can plan a few appointments in a day; school in the morning, project meetings during lunch, rushing to piano practice or work interviews or home in after lunch, the rest of the day, something pops up, maybe near to last minute drum appointments, family gathering, and such.
and things goes wrong that i feel so stressed that it took me bloody 5 minutes to spell the word "minute" in a SMS. GOSH. however, other than personal ambitions planning to get more things done,the problems lies is people think like the economist, the arthopologist, the psychologist and not like the sociologist in the old elephant story (to be shared later). The above sentence probably makes me sound like a self-centred and egoistic person who shifts the blame to others when things goes wrong or not up to expectations. Well, although i am a little prone to be egoistic, i do not shift blames.
as the title suggests, school have started, then sorry to my blog and readers, for not posting frequently (read: very long no post le).
well the pressure of studies have definitely set in to squeeze me. Also, projects comes one by one and compact your social time. on top of that, i'm planning to get a part-time job, both for the money and experience. other demands of life also make it so hard to breath and sleep properly, such as drum and family. Luckily, there's always music (drum and piano), arts and Starbucks to give me some life juice to ensure that i can move around, either voluntarily or reluctantly.
for school, doing project with some new and familiar people is really tough. because you see ideas coming form 2 sides of the spectrum and that those ideas are impossible to compromise, then you decide whose ideas you should support, or to kill that is. hmm, maybe it's time to set some rules and force my way down on them. and i've been behind the online lecture videos, need to find more time to look at them. wonder if i can manage my time well.
managing time has been posting problems,since i can plan a few appointments in a day; school in the morning, project meetings during lunch, rushing to piano practice or work interviews or home in after lunch, the rest of the day, something pops up, maybe near to last minute drum appointments, family gathering, and such.
and things goes wrong that i feel so stressed that it took me bloody 5 minutes to spell the word "minute" in a SMS. GOSH. however, other than personal ambitions planning to get more things done,the problems lies is people think like the economist, the arthopologist, the psychologist and not like the sociologist in the old elephant story (to be shared later). The above sentence probably makes me sound like a self-centred and egoistic person who shifts the blame to others when things goes wrong or not up to expectations. Well, although i am a little prone to be egoistic, i do not shift blames.
The Old Elephant Story
Once, an elephant was introduced to the psychologist, the economist, the sociologist and the arthopologist. The social scientists were all blindfolded that that time to allow specialist efforts on their studies with the elephant. so one by one the scientists began to examine the elephant and choose which part of the elephant they would like to focus on. The psychologist quickly found the head of the elephant and said,
"This is where the mind lies, we should study here to understand the elephant thinks."
Next came the economist, who immediately headed towards and touched the tusk of the elephant and commented,
"This part is most valuable, we should study this part of the animal to explore it's value."
Following after the economist, the arthopologist used no time to identify the ears and eyes and said,
"what it knows and learned is by sight and hearing, we need to study here!"
Finally, the sociologist spent some time to explore the animal, the body, the legs, the tusk, the tail, the ears, the head, the mouth, as well as the back of the animal, sitting there listening to the sound the animal makes. Finally, the sociologist said,
" We can't study only one part of the animal as each and every part contributes to what the animal is. We'll need to take our blindfolds off and work together."
What happened next is up to your imagination, but it was not the happy ending kind.
(i typed the story based on memory after reading it from textbook, it does not belong to me. thanks)
i still have loads to say, but then i know that some stuff are not meant to be shown on blogs, cause you never know exactly who is reading your stuff. and when you do, you will have to be less open as many observations are often faced with pain and denial. i guess i have to keep some stuff to myself and only myself.
(in the way tony says it) bye bye.
ONg LAi
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