Saturday 23 February 2008

Strained.

Singapore Won the YOG!
(well, being at Padang got me so excited anyway)
i just read a couple of stuff before breakfast and led a life with and without a leader,a colleague,and without a friend. Woa, for me, it was bullshit. First, we're not robots to be programmed so much that we can switch on and off emotions; secondly, i knew you were scheming, but now, i recognised that you are as hypocritical as a coin. Thanks for letting me see that hypocrite side of yours, if it doesn't spoilt our relations, it most probably will strengthen it, as they say, "what won't kill you makes you stronger". After so many years, with the recent ones having more interaction, i understand now, i can not think too highly of a person to be morally, image-ly and friend-like upright. To think i saw you in awe and respect was given. Criticism i can take and absorb it in, your acts, i take it as betrayal.
we often bu suang abt the happenings in drum, then we ask ourselves from the end of the practice to right before leaving the house for practice, " why we're still going to drum practice since it really doesn't provide the motivation/incentive to go?" and many a times, if not all the times (til now that someone breach it) we leave the question unanswered to store up all the doubts and "Just do it!" as Nike says it.
Reading those two emails, changed my perception and mode of thinking. if you wanted performers' thinking, good for you, i have it. but a performer is on stage to express emotions, and hopefully the emotionally-charged me can express the kind of emotion you want.
Thanks again, for making me mature even more then it hasn't.
Best Regards,
Yu Jun
Tool.
unintention aims and sorrys isn't really effective.