Tuesday 10 June 2008

Life's gooder.

HelloOOOOO!

if you can't see my title for this entry, it's "Life's Gooder". Well, it's getting better than before but then it's still not perfect yet, "who have a perfect life?" you may ask. The question might be too philosophical for me to answer, so just treat it as food for thought.

Dividing my life into sections for easy reading, in sense that after reading the heading and decide to either read on or skip it depending on interest, you are given the right to do that. I am good to you right?? HaHa. just joking. getting serious.

NOW
It's raining at Yishun at this time, 2248hrs. Moderate-strong winds was blowing just now, but it had just down-sized to low-moderate wind which drastically chill the whole flat(apartment) down. It's that kind of weather that creates an atmosphere you wish that you have a cuppa of hot chocolate and play your beloved PSP games, read your favourite book and spend some quiet time alone while listening to the rain. Yea, it's cool but then life isn't a fantasy in reality. I have my sister disrupting my peace with her Sentosa-holiday plans. That does not help a brother doing his schoolwork and trying to finish projects. On top of that, Mom and Dad just reach home and starts asking loads of questions. It's good to talk, but seriously now's not the time. The thing i hate most of these situations is that I cannot talk back and ask them to buzz off. I admit that i am conditioned to reply to their conversation for 2 main reasons; one is that this is the short half an hour i get o talk to them in a day and if i don't talk to them, they might send me off to temples to get 'holy; advice thinking i am nuts. So that sums up the NOW part.

ZingO
As i mentioned before, ZingO is too integrated into my life for me not to blog about it and surprisingly, you can Google my blog by typing in ZingO Drums. LOL to that. Recently, after Death Of A Hero participation, came "FlipSide". Initially, most of us dreaded this performance as the time period for this performance and it's practice is supposedly our REST period. And the requirements are tough. A 30 minute performance of fun and light-hearted performance. WHOA! That was not what we are used to, stepping out of the comfort zone was tough, but luckily there was Death Of A Hero to help with that.

As time and practices went past us in our course of preparation, things went rapidly fast and the first performance was up. ZingO has the limitation in areas of "seeing things as audience". If we are all equipped with it, i doubt we will be drumming, but we have good friends to help with that. Benjamin, Doris and Zenna came and watch our impromptu/last-minute-changed performance on the first night. On a side note, Pui Yee got her photography friends and watch the first show as well. Trying to get the photos from her ASAP, and might post a few up.

The first show can be considered a disaster, "the flow was not oriented", "it was a flat show", "like ACES day" (internal comment), *applause was weak*. You know, all the sign and symptoms of a weak performance started surfacing during the show. As a performer, during the show, I have to act happy rather then be happy. HAIZ. deep depression.

But with comments and advice form Benjamin and Doris, Chun Ann (who have to credited for the script,drumming and choreography and communicating with the Esplanade personnel) rearranged the performance and the next day, the whole performance is different. Not to say that chun ann should be gloating, I'm just crediting not praising. There is a difference between the two. The saying goes "Singaporeans can't be praised or else they will ya-ya-banana."

perhaps after the first performance, due to low morale of a lousy show, everyone had the mental preparation to work hard and suffer more. In other word, the whole performers that day were more focused and extra efforts were imputed to training and performance. I like that; it re-ignited the dying flame of performer, a group and a passion. It felt like our performance at Thomas CC some time ago after seeing a Japanese group performed. Our spirits at that CC were charged up and later, we put up a great show, or so as the audience said.

After the second performance then i truly realise the importance of this state of mind, of being low in moral and wanting to do better. According to Shi Xiong's Terminology, it's call the "suffering" attitude, the willingness to give in more and not be complacent. However, the crux of this attitude is that it is hard to create artificially, easier to let the environment to create it. With the dependence of the environment factors, it reduced the control-bility. What we can do is to remind us constantly the two incident of what happened and not allowing it to re0occur.

The second performance won praises and applause from the audience. my statement to the second show is that "We won back our esteem as ZingO." Done as a group and each individual gave more form what they normally does. maybe that's ZingO. The only two regrets are that we done a bad show on the first day and those who watched the first show may have a bad impression on us, especially pui yee, who even brought her friends. haiz, can't be help. Just hope to get the first performance de photos from her asap. Miss Chee pui Yee, pls try to keep your evenings free for coffee meeting.

SchoolWork
"One minute spent is worth two minutes spent from May 20th to June 29th" that summarize my school life with 2 courses compressed to be finished in half a semester. It is really hectic and i'm taking a break from school work to blog, just in case if you were wondering. Research papers due dates are really coming close and both group de draft one are not out yet (I'm am partially responsible for that), so 4 times the hardwork now. Shall not talk too much to create boredom.

MISC
went to watch "auto auto" on sunday night, before the Human Resources Management mid-term exam. You know those days that you let your irrational-ism get the better side of you? It was what happened during the past weekend and the "auto auto" performance was to tell myself that i had to get back my rational-ism. but it was a enjoyable weekend with fun performance, as a performer as well as a audience. Watching a Car being transformed into a "grand Piano" is absolutely great. the whole show is great, the lights, technical aids, performer's effort, script, props were greatly used. Well, maybe not that great, there's one thing i am picking on and that is the main performer's energy level dropped when his co-performer did a error in smashing the window instead of creating a convertible with 4 windows. That's how i saw it, different people have different views thou.

Alright, this post have been posted in an condensed manner, and i have to get back to research papers.

till next time!!

ONg LAi
"Life's a PERFORMANCE"