mind over matter?

Yo PPle.

as you may have noticed, my previous was kind of a lengthy piece which earned some some response from djw and Pui Yee.

addressing pui yee first: thank for the compliment!! will work harder to improve more, yea, i do not have to bear you commemting on my lousy English anymore. and meet up soon for coffee, rmb the big glass jar and 2 cups of coffee.

next, djw.

"djw: ong u seem realli lost .. lol .. every1 will have their own stress .. remember tat .. not onli u .. but everything is in ur mind .. u wan to overcome stress den 1st overcome ur mind .. =)" -- djw

the reasons he is able to understand what i mean were 1) he is having a 1 month holiday from NS due to his ribcage. 2) he came and watched the performance on the 2nd of Nov and 3) he knows about the ZingO recruitment.

adapting the idea from Mark Twain, "it is a mind and matter issue, if you do not mind, it does not matter". in this quote, it refers to the things that affects you. djw was used this idea and referring to the stress that i noted in my previous post.

since i read the tag, i had 2 questions in my mind.

1) if i do not mind, will i still be in ZingO and will i feel satisfied?

ok, really hits and i cannot totally ignore the happenings in my life. so the second question came to mind.

2) at which angle should i try to slant my point of view to achieve the "don't mind yet doesn't matter goal?"

really, thinking over this question makes me rack my brain; i can sit in lectures and block out the lecturer's words and think over this question, i can sit in the bus and miss a stop (just happened this morning) all because of this question. then i still have not been able to answer the question. however, i do know that i want ZingO to grow and i am going to do my best and not let others get in my way. it not stress that makes me feel so discourage but other factors( i think i can handle stress quite well you see)..

aiyaa ,look at the time.

can't blog anymore, will continue next time..

off to do prepare for ZingO recruitment.

bb

Yu Jun

helpless

won't it be great if we can choose when we want ot live in? as in travelling thu time to go back or forth to live your life again or like never before?

if i can do that, i will go back to secondary 2 and repeat that time period again and again. despite the fact that i was an much hatred figure in sec school back then, i still managed to find much fun practicing drums.

life was pretty much simple then. there's no ZingO to worry about, dun have to put in alot of efforts to try to make a change in ZingO but still achieve no results, no essays to write, no ass kissing, no calculus,etc, etc.

life now is stressful. according to the physician Hans Selye, stressed is the nonspecific response of the body to any demand made upon it. (yes, i am being technical, but this is my blog isn't it?)

then i asked my self, am i really stressed with demands?

of course i am!
Demanded by the school to give efforts to do work and study for the exams.
Demanded by the instructors to finish tonnes of work that seem to be due all together.
Demanded by ZingO to trigger improvements, which just seem to be ever so hard to do so.
Demanded by ZingO people to be able to handle internal relations well.
Demanded by my family to be the good boy at home, to do the chores, accompany my grandma, to help out at the shop in the weekends and holidays, to come home early and to be successful.
Demanded by dynamics between logic and desire and constantly telling myself that my life is too preoccupied to be taking care and thinking of another person for ages.
Demanded by the list of demands that just seem to be never ending.

i understand that relations are just like clouds; they form upon fate, and they will have to disperse or cause rain one day or another but why does it seem so hard to keep ourselves light without the burden of unnecessary involvements?

why must we humans always think that we are capable to the extend that we lose control like creating a dam that one day will drown us off?

from Jake, the walking reminder that i have to face NS in my course of studies, "when we get closer to light, the stronger we get to the shadows."

dunno why, Tanya Chua's songs seem to hit me in the heart deeply.

and the theme music for the movie ' lust' broadcasting from YES933 right now.

time flies and amidst time, how do we actually make this time worth living for? worth to remember? through arguments or stagnantation or even recidivism?

then i ask, so you want to improve or recidivate? tell me truthfully or else keep your mouth to yourself.

one observation i made is that people who are the only child in the family, tend to be more selfish and throw tantrums as there were brought up, "king of the family". no wonder we switch to governments rather than kingships.

knowing these little things about people really helps,as in you can predict the responses from people and understanding the rational behind that behaviour which sometimes can rack the brains out, especially to self.

told belson earlier that i just felt lost after reading a mail reply to a lot of people, actually, i felt helpless. to share with you, i fear of being helpless to things happening arond me, helpless as time tick seconds by seconds away and our life and essence in living might be wasted.

i want ZingO members to be with ZingO. i dun want to lose another comrade to others. pls make sure you come back, if you are lost, find your way back.

ONg LAi

helpless to the change in hearts.

Shi xiong's birthday.

YO pple,

taking a breather here while printing my notes of the lectures and papers for the projects..

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO JAMIE SUSIE THOMAS AND ZINGO FOUNDER, ROCH ONG CHEE HAU!!

what great birthdays they have, HAPPY HALOWEEN! as well..

then just now went to causeway point with shi xiong.there was 7pple (for the dunno how many times) present including the old birthday man.. pssss, teck wee, you are not supposed to know who was there..

it was meant to be our treat and instead, shi xiong paid for the meal again. it totally dampened the birthday spirit. we specially met up to treat him an d this is wat happened?! !@#$%!@#$%^&*

from a birthday celebration, it turned out to be akin to the normal treats he would give us when we spend dinnertime with him.. unless he feels damn blissed/happy/good treating us to dinner, we felt failure in this birthday celebrations. why did things have to turn out this way??

then went home straight after dinner due to the dampened atmosphere.

so depressing to fail in organising an event..

YuJun

ZINGO-IANS! PLS GO READ MY REPLY TO THE ANNOUCEMENT CREATED BY CHUN ANN REGARDING THE ZINGO RECUITEMENT DRIVE! READ CAREFULLY AND THINK DEEP. THANKS.