Horoscopes

Hello!!

just received those chain email. but as usual, i'm not going to care about it. Ensuring that whatever (bad luck, misfortune, etc) don't happen on me is just too tiring. What can go wrong, will go wrong and must go wrong. On top of that, it's like sharing misfortune with people while you get safe (with no granatee), why do so much sins.

haha, i'm talking serious a moment ago. Just remembered that I told Yong Xin in secondary 1 that if you continueto send out those chain mail or letter, instead of ensuring nothing bad happens to you, it just returns to you 10fold if you send the mail to 10 people.. haha. it was very funny that she actually believed me. Hope that she didn't remember it after so many years. Oh ya, she's a Libra. Haha.

Anyway, i'm posting the horoscopes details without all the curseing.

Here it is!

CAPRICORN - The Go-Getter (Dec 22 - Jan 19) Patient and wise. Practical and rigid. Ambitious. Tends to be Good-looking. Humorous and funny.. Can be a bit shy and reserved. Often pessimistic. Capricorns tend to act before they think and can be Unfriendly at times. Like competition. Get what they Want.

AQUARIUS - The Sweetheart (Jan 20 - Feb 18) Optimistic and honest. Sweet personality. Very independent. Inventive and intelligent. Friendly and loyal. Can seem unemotional. Can be a bit rebellious. Very stubborn, but original and unique. Attractive on the inside and out. Eccentric personality.

PISCES - The Dreamer (Feb 19 - Mar 20) Generous, kind, and thoughtful. Very creative and imaginative..May become secretive and vague. Sen sitive. Don't like details. Drea my and unrealistic. Sympathetic and loving. Kind. Unselfish. Good kisser. Beautiful.

ARIES - The Daredevil (Mar 21 - April 19)Energetic. Adventurous and spontaneous. Confident and enthusiastic. Fun. Loves a challenge. EXTREMELY impatient. Sometimes selfish. Short fuse. (Easily angered.) Lively, passionate, and sharp wit. Outgoing. Lose interest quickly - easily bored. Egotistical. Courageous and assertive. Tends to be physical and athletic.

TAURUS - The Enduri ng One (April 20 - May 20) Charming but aggressive. Can come off as boring, but they are not. Hard workers. Warm-hearted. Strong, has endurance. Solid beings that are stable and secure in their ways. Not lookin! g for shortcuts. Take pride in their beauty. Patient and reliable. Make great friends and give good advice. Loving and kind. Loves hard - passionate. Express themselves emotionally. Prone to ferocious temper-tantrums. Determined. Indulge themselves often. Very generous.

GEMINI - The Chatterbox (May 21 - June 20) Smart and witty. Outgoing, very chatty. Lively, energetic. Adaptable But needs to express themselves. Argumentative and outspoken. Like change. Versatile. Busy, sometimes nervous and tense. Gossips. May seem superficial or inconsistent. Beaut iful physically and mentally.

CANCER - The Protector (June 21 - July 22)Moody, emotional. May be shy. Very loving and caring. Pretty/handsome. Excellent partners for life. Protective. Inventive and imaginative. Cautious. Touchy-feely! kind of person. Needs love from others. Easily hurt, but sympathetic. 16 years of bad luck if you do not forward.

LEO - The Boss (July 23 - Aug 22)Very organized. Need order in their lives - like being in control. Like boundaries. Tend to take over everything. Bossy. Like to help Others. Social and outgoing. Extroverted. Generous, warm-hearted. Sen sitive. Creative energy. Full of themselves. Loving. Doing the right thing is important to Leos. Attractive.

VIRGO - The Perfectionist (Aug 23 - Sept 22)Dominant In relationships. Conservative. Always wants the last word. Argume ntative. Worries. Very smart. Dislikes noise and chaos. Eager. Hardworking. Loyal. Beautiful. Easy to talk to.Hard to please. Harsh. Practical and very fussy. Often shy. Pessimistic.

LIBRA - The Harmonizer (Sept 23 - Oct ! 22) Nice to everyone they meet. Can't make up their mind. Have own unique appeal. Creative, energetic, and very social. Hates to be alone. Peaceful, generous. Very loving and beautiful. Flirtatious. Give in too easily. Procrastinators. Very gullible.

SCORPIO - The Intense One (Oct 23 - Nov 21) Very energetic. Intelligent. Can be jealous and/or possessive. Hardworking. Great kisser. Can become obsessive or secretive. Holds grudges. Attractive.. Determined. Loves being in long Relationships. Talkative. Romantic. Can be self-centered at times. Passionate and Emotional.

SAGITTARIUS - The Happy-Go-Lucky One (Nov 22 - Dec 21)Good-natured optimist. Doesn't want to grow up (Peter Pan Syndrome). Indulges self. Boastful. Likes luxuries and gambling. Social and outgoing. Doesn't lik! e responsibilities. Often fantasizes. Impatient. Fun to be around. Hav ing lots of friends. Flirtatious. Doesn't like rules. Sometimes hypocritical. Dislikes being confined - tight spaces or even tight clothes.. Doesn't like being doubted. Beautiful inside and out.

That's all.

ONg LAi

Imprefection

Photos from my phone again.

The Unperfect mE.

Looking at the 10pm TV series on chanel U, “Perfect Cut” recently provided me with many insight about life. It was especially so when the ideas are abstract and portrayed by good-looking actors and actors who manages to push the emotions/’feel’ to fit the ‘Perfect Beings” look.

As you might have seen from the video above, there were several eye candies from the two planets; the dudes, Thomas Ong, Julian Hee, as well as the babes, Michelle Chia, Constance Song, Apple Hong, Felicia Chin and Joey Swee with her inner beauty more then external beauty.

As the show slowly progress, the external perfection with Botox, skin tightening, double eyelid, breast enhancement, etc was portrayed with the positive light, but that didn’t get me into the perfection thinking mode, my sister included after she saw how much pain the ladies went through just to get bigger breast or their vagina tighten or pricked by needles. This was how the show started, but as the plot slowly unfolds, things get more complicated and the mature themes got into me. -.- One day, I went to have my haircut and looked into the mirror for the longest duration recently. I realized that my single eyelid eyes are uneven, and with the media portraying the perfection models not only in The Perfect Cut but also the movies like Red Cliff, I realized that I am not perfect.

Imperfect, I have to constantly remind myself that everyone is imperfect to suppress the urge to save money to go for an eyelid operation to even both eyes and cut flab future to gain a body like Julian’s. Then, Lasik came into my mental thoughts, being half myopic is a disadvantage even if I can see perfectly well with one eye.

All the physical imperfection got into me and I sort of put that behind me until I reminded myself that I don’t have the inner beauty to make up for the external perfection. I am imperfect inside out. -.- imperfect with looks and brains and emotionally, I find it hard not to think about the ways to be more perfect, although I know I’ll never have the money to be perfect via the knife.

Some quotes that left a deep impression on me from the show:
“There are no ugly people, only poor people” – Alex Tan
“There are no fat People, only lazy people” – Sky Tan
“Everyone has a psychological problem; it only differs on the seriousness of it.”—Kelly
“Using inner beauty to compensate for the flawed exterior” – Song lyrics
“Inner beauty?! Who can see that?” – Bobby Low
“People are interested me for my money, you are interested with your patients for their money too!” Some Auntie to Alex Tan
“Why will you want to be someone else’s shadow when you can be yourself? – Kelly
“Does the opinion of others really matter?” -- Kelly

Anyway, that’s all fro the show since it has ended and there will be little chance that I will be able to watch it again, unless Channel U rebroadcast at a convenient timing.

Feeling imperfect makes it hard to accept criticism during drum practice, maybe even beyond the 8 hours of drum to life. However, remembering the last quote, I realized that I am overly sensitive.

Till next time.

ONg LAi

Dilligence

(I'm getting addicted to taking photos on my phone.)

Harlow.

I'm learning the Blues recently and I think the Blues has got the better side to me, especially on the music side of me.

I went for piano class yesterday totally unprepared. End result? I wasted both the teacher's and my time. She say some words to me yesterday before i left for home,

"Why don't you go learn Singing? A Pianist have to play the piano until he is confused. ... With all the instruments around, the Pianist is the most hardworking, followed by the violinist." -- Miss Leong Xiao Yan

Knowing her intention at heart, I thank her for saying words slanted at this angle because it was kind of her and impactful for me. I spend the whole night and this morning thinking about practices.

In the past, i treated practices as a second priority, practicing when I'm free, skipping class. Things have to change. To not waste the money invested, not letting down my piano teacher and lastly myself, i got to practice hard.

Of course, this applies to drum as well. Being a percussionist, i suck at drum. Actually, i suck at music. Being a sucky person, i got to use something else to compensate for this. HARDWORK. This might jolly well be the one best life lesson I learned from Mr Lee, since leaving secondary school.

"If you are not as smart, then practise hard to make-up for that in order to achieve the same standards." -- Mr Lee Kah Chin

To stack things up, I have been reading Tony's blog time to time and his entry after the omega performance, I sort of have some enlightenment regarding his serious (and somewhat moment of pissed feelings) outlook on us as performers. He articulate some unwritten rules that has been in the air. Although his entry hurts to a certain degree, I can't help to agree on the things that he said.

in point form, this is my response to what he mentioned.

• Red Cliff was really nice. will be watching the sequel too.
• High expectation can lead to high quality, but the pressure must be channelled correctly.
• Performance mood have to be prepared, i agree.
• ouch, my rhythm sense is offended.
• "think for the group, act for the group"
• Buck up Buck up = more practise for me.
• thanks for letting me know how you think with ZingO, it helps :]

Got to end here so I can go school and study.

But i have to say thank you to Miss Leong, Mr Lee and Tony before i go. They contribute to part of my life lessons.

Hopefully, i can smile like this about music someday after hardwork.

Regards,
ONg LAi

A trip to Changi

Went to Changi today, been there before, but today, i saw it's other side of it. I went alone to racky the chalet for ZingO end of year chalet. Being alone, my thoughts of the place are not affected by the comments of others. For example, my last visit to Changi was for a scouts' camp at Ubin, with the rest of the scouts, burden with food supplies and equipment, all was half excited and the other half unhappy that the camp is going to be cut short from three days to two. It was not really pleasant, especially for those who were the campers and the others who are the planners, that would be everyone except mr Lee, perhaps didn't understand the spirit of camping at that point of time. Hence, complains about the stuff being heavy, the sea smelled even more salty than it usually was, the fares for the bum-boats to Ubin were super expensive, etc. was heard. Inevitably, my spirit and attitude towards Ubin and Changi was affected for the worse. Since then, i never really gave a second thought to that place.

Changing the view from the rear mirror to the front of my life vehicle (ME), I used some time walking around Changi, not Ubin because i didn't have time to take the boat ride, from the Yatch Club chalet to the Beach Walk, to Changi Village and to the Changi Beach Park. It was great to take things at my own pace and being alone prevented distractions. I got some ideas of how the chalet activities and schedules would be after the time by the coastal line of Changi. A simple world of SAF power over the chalets and the smell of salt, polluted by the boats and rubbish found on the surface of the waters. I think looking at the sea relaxes the mental self. All the defense mechanism and skeptical thoughts slowly vanished, as thought left with my footsteps on the footpath.

Took this photo on my phone's camera and edited as well. Somehow, it looks really nice. Although the angle is learnt from one of the photos i saw before, the meaning of the photo is really different. This photo means alot, but I don't know how to put it into words.

I like the photo, do you?

ONg LAi