Your Working Style

You are extremely dependable and have a complete, realistic, and practical respect for the facts. You absorb, remember, and use any number of facts and are careful about your accuracy. When you see that something needs to be done, you accept the responsibility, often beyond the call of duty. You like everything clearly stated.

Your private reactions, which seldom show in your face, are often vivid and intense. Even when dealing with a crisis you look calm and composed. Behind your outer calm you are viewing the situation from an intensely individual angle. When you are "on duty" and dealing with the world, however, your behavior is sound and sensible.

You are thorough, painstaking, systematic, hard-working, and careful with particulars and procedures. Your perseverance tends to stabilize everything with which you are connected. You do not enter into things impulsively, but once committed, you are very hard to distract or discourage.

You often choose careers where your talents for organization and accuracy are rewarded. Examples are accounting, civil engineering, law, production, construction, health careers, and office work. You often move into supervisory and management roles.

If you are in charge of something, your practical judgment and valuing of procedure makes you consistent and conservative, assembling the necessary facts to support your evaluations and decisions. You look for Solutions to present problems in your successes of the past. With time you become masters of even the smallest elements of your work, but don't give yourself any special credit for this knowledge.

You may encounter problems if you expect everyone to be as logical and analytical as you are. You then run the danger of inappropriately passing judgment on others or overriding less forceful people. A useful rule is to use your thinking to make your perceptions about inanimate objects or your own behavior, and to use your perception to understand others. If you use your senses to see what really matters to others, so that it becomes a fact to be respected, you may go to generous lengths to help.

Another problem may arise if your thinking remains undeveloped. You may retreat, becoming absorbed with your inner reactions to sense-impressions, with nothing of value being produced. You may also tend to be somewhat suspicious of imagination and intuition, and not take it seriously enough.

Something i got online, from a link from Lionel. this is the link.. I think it speaks quite well for me, hence, posting it up, do go try it out!!

YuJun

Let what comes in my way comes.

hi there people.

Time seems to be passing really fast and now it's time for me to do a long long road march, and end my life (read: finish the course, not commit sucide) as a recruit in my term of national service.

Coming to the end of the second course (after the Physical Training Package), BMT (basic military training) has been a less favourable yet more satisfying experience. There were more people around, more egos to feed and destroy, more attitudes, more differing socialised people to work with and last but not least, more activities done.

Some of our fellow recruits have to leave us, some have to recourse. Others, have been enrolled into one of the vocations available, some will attain medical skills, some learning how to control weapons of destruction (or should I say oppression), and some other skills, some other knowledge.

My vocation was announced today, Leaders.

Back then in PTP, I was really expecting and worked hard to be selected into one. Most of my PTP buddies knew about it and was very supportive about it. That feeling was great, and til today, it can be sensed that the same people still support my dream back then. Sincerely from me to you, PTP buddies, Thank you.

During the course of BMT, I interacted with more people. the 'class' of recruits blew up from 30 in each 'class' to the current strength of 59, with one chap being posted out already before it's over. bigger 'class', more bunks. more cliques and more politics. Yes, gaining popularity, impressing instructors, volunteering for 'special tasks', talking their way through and winning sympathy became so common if you just keep in tune to them. Suddenly, even everyone became so artificial and I, sadly, was influenced and turned myself plastic while doing the 'projects' assigned. It didn't feel good.

but i couldn't be myself. Given a task, I would become serious. Others who didn't understand me as well cannot tolerate the degree of seriousness while I fulfil my tasks. when I try to be true to myself, some showed dislike and complains in the grapevine so as I get news of their feelings.

'why so serious?' was the message they give me.

I can understand them but cannot bear to not see to eye their behaviour and attitude. Psychological theories suggest that I can change behaviour (yes I did) but I cannot change their attitudes. true. and I always wondered when will that lousy attitudes will bite them in their faces, whenever I have to raise my voice and yell at people.

after every time i shout at them, I felt moody. Why didn't i just hold my temper in a little and let them be? they are responsible for their own actions, not me! oh ya, i was the in charge for the task and if they get caught. there is a good chance that the whole platoon will get the punishment (another, but yet stronger form of behaviour conditioning).

Coming to this point, I feel my blood somewhat boiling again and at the same time, moody for all the times I shouted at my platoon mates. Need to exert more self control.

I always like to think, "A leader is only characterised not by his action but his men." So, should I swing my pendulum closer to doing tasks or closer to satisfying my men?

War cry, skit, being myself, making and maintaining friends, preventing backstabbing, watching out for the politics, thinking of how to console friends who either didn't do too well at A levels or couldn't stay with the commandos or worse, both and thinking about how to cope with the leaders responsibilities when I have the tendency to sound very harsh when doing tasks.

My seriousness might be a manifestation of my ego and I am creating a defensive mechanism to protect my ego while not being sure if it's that the case?

I'm very tired now. sorry for the bad English or the lack of flow in this post.

Mentally drained,
YuJun

hi there!

Here blogging to you is a chap that might have gained 3kgs or more due to a very sumptuous buffet dinner yesternight.

Well, yesternight turned out well, it can be seem that no one was not satisfied with the food and the service was good. Majority of our little "class" were there and all the "teachers" turned up to (even we addressed and converted them into our friends) make the day even more interesting. Interesting in sense that how our "class" dress for the occasion, who used the opportunity last evening to wayang to the instructors and who they really are, without the pressure of the "school" setting.

What happened in our room was that we entered the room, to our slight dismay, breathing the smell of the room, eating, chit chatting, eating, laughing as some people gotten "raped" by the rapist of the "class", photos taking and loads more of cam whoring (by guys!!).

Anyway, although yesterday that was a happy occasion, and we were all supposed to enjoy the evening, it didn't work out in that manner for me. Hmm, I asked myself why was I feeling so moody and not getting into the party mood, trying to find come intrapersonal connection.

my list of perhaps came to form something like this:

Perhaps because,

I am Fat (as suggested mainly by Zack and some others) and eating a buffet is not really suitable for fat people?

Perhaps because,

I still have to worry about both the POP performances, one is not up to standards yet, the other is not created yet.

Perhaps because,

I am not a party person, and find comfort in these gathering somewhere near to a wall and just doing things to myself, for myself.

Perhaps because,

I am tired from lack of sleep and been doing things for the whole day starting from 7am til 11pm.

Perhaps because,
Perhaps because,Perhaps because,
Perhaps because,Perhaps because,Perhaps because,
Perhaps because,Perhaps because,Perhaps because,Perhaps because,
Perhaps because,Perhaps because,Perhaps because,Perhaps because,Perhaps because...

i CAN'T ENJOY THE COMPANY LAST NIGHT.

doing things in our little class of 60 people has made me a much dreaded character. Some people identify faults with what I do, others find faults. Some communicate with me about how they feel, others does it behind my back, allowing them to add some spices and elements of truth into it. Some like my ideas, helps and develop my ideas, while others take my ideas and turn it into their own.

All of these did not bothered me until I realised that I have been trying to do my part of the work seriously with much efforts, sometimes having to face the pressures from the top management and the bottom followers, but all of my credits will be shared with my middle management, when they were the most uncooperative crew.

Pressures keep stacking on me to do things around the organisation. But, I firmly believe and entrust myself to not allow these stressing factors and people to meet my threshold and causing myself to burnout. Nope, I will not land on the other side of the stress curve.

YuJun.