Yo PPle..

today, was an big day for ZingO-ians.. yet when all de others was enjoying themselves, playing ball ,basktball(=_= ) and such.. abd i was feeling kinda emotionless, eh-no, feeling neutral abt the 'celebrations'..

you must be confused right now right?(e-eeh, how come ong lai is saying so confusing things? he soew already ar?) well, i actually might be.. i am now really depressed after a few hours of thinking thru things alone with my pessimistic thinking brain.. let me guide you from this morning..

notified by djw abt today practice, i skipped eating Steamboat with pui yee and other !19-ians.. i wanna be ready for today's energy-draining roud of practice..she seemed to be puzzled why i didn't want to go eat..

anyway, i met up with tony for breakfast and ruo han didn't turn as he overslept(as usual).. having breakfast with tony has always ben fun..he would joke abt everything.. like today, we were eating McDonalds de bangel then he went to poke the hole lar.. he said that it felt good but commented that the bread was hard and tough to chew on.. then i said that he poked the hole and it became hard lar.. *laughs* and since we used those promotions coupons, we got two extra sausage McMuffin with egg for FREE.. plus ruo han's takeaway, we had 4 sausage McMuffin with in a bag.. later, we bluff phyllan that we ordered 1 and the McStaff gave us and he believed us.. we told him the truth later and i regretted treating him my free breakfast item..

*feeling better by a little*

when we reached school, tony and i was drawn to the bkball court and i played ball with them until CA called and said that he will be late so ask me to help me take CCHY for a while until he comes.. so i take over.. it is not a pleasing task as they reminded me of YYSS with lousier attitude to drumming..i scolded them after that out of a moment of folly, yet, i didn't regret scolding them over such simple things since simple things comes before great things..

then there was a ZingO briefing on today's practice and a piece of anticipated news that came a little too sudden for me was announce.. ZingO had a re-structuring.. and CA was promoted to president, replacing djw and teck wee, not exactly promoting, replacing xjw.. i was still ok with the arrangement until i saw the papers that revealed all our 12 zodiac's position.. i am happy that i was not given a big role to play, but felt a little not used to it and quite low that i was in a place not able to influence pple greatly.. but i accept it al without alloeing myself to complain as i knew it was the best arrangement.. rather than me being used to balance powers.. lucky this time, no BGR was invloved.. so i am not used as a tool again.. i am in group 4 with belson.. haha,i can proudly use my bleach bag le.. haha..

then we had a round of gruelling practice and we sweat it out man.. i am starting to re-learn this piece and understanding it at a deeper level..and the sun was super hot.. like always, i got sun-burn again..

during practice, we had abreak for sx to talk with the existing CCHY drummers(he was scolding them actually) and we crowded around him to catch the breeze.. he chase us off as those words was not meant for us.. hence, edvwin, zm and i went to the other side if the parade square and lied beside the pond to enjoy the breeze.. edvwin fell asleep while waiting for practice to resume..and i had a nice chat with zm.. that felt good..

*feeling better also*

then we kept all the drums and went to the promotion buffet.. in the midgt of the buffet, somehow and some what, the others zodiacs was saying that the FH pple was scouts and giving them friendly nipple-pinch(tegn)..and maybe things got serious for me and the FH pple.. and they was minding me pinching them or wateva while not CA or TW.. i am much hated i guess and i am willing to accept that.. it is by nature de ba.. [20mins later] we were at the sports hall and seeing CA being pinned down by the white-glasses de FH guy.. i dunno why, i got my way to those two on the ground and i start un-pinning them and soon trouble started.. Chun ann was bleeding at his eye area but that was not caught my attention.." kan-ni-na! push wat Push?!".. it was one of the other FH boys.. as i think i pushed him out of my way to 'rescue CA'.. i think i got to irrational and i just walked away tending to CA's wound first.. then tony came to the toliet saying 'wat happened? how come they scold kan-ni-na?'.. then i knew how serious things was.. so to avoid more trouble, i retreated to the timber store to play with RH and tony's NDSL.. even went to the toliet to vent my anger(by hitting the walls).. if i dun say it here, who would have noticed it?(except xjw who picked up a bit of disorder from me ba).. i had a thought to say sorry to him when i see him next time but it depends if i will have the courage then.. i just dun wan a misunderstanding to wreck things between me and the FH pple.. haiz.. it would be a pity.. but maybe saying sorry won't solve the problem ba..

after 1530hrs, we left school.. sx and djw went to m'sia to see the temple festival and tony, belson, teck wee and myself to OCC to play pool.. i was feeling guilty as i ps sx to go play pool..

went to develop photos and bought dinner to go with wat was cooked at home.. while eating and writing this post, my mind was trying to focus and composing my mind to a better mood but i think it is not working..

i am still kinda depressed..

Chatted with mervin and i came up with a phrase..'time is not so kind to let you go back in time and unhurt her because only then you will know wat love is..'
waiting for que to bath finish and chat with me then try to feel better ba.. shauna is only adding to my depression level now but i dun really wan tell her..

PS ,i know it might sound extreme,but i vomitted my dinner into the toliet bowl as i am frustated over wat happened betw me and the FH guy.. now feeling kinda hungry as well.. wateva lar.. things have not been gg for me pleasantly any smoothingly for me...