yo pple!

haven really been blogging.. well, cause ruo han lent me his nitendo DS for like a week or so(which was a deed to himself anyway..).. so kinda got hooked on games.. i like being a surgeon(healing touch!*star*),as well as being a lawyer('objection!'), FF3, etc,etc... i apologise to all that have been reading my blog and sees no new entries(voice from within:"are there pple like that around???")...

but today, i think i will seperate all my different thoughts into different paragraphs.. targeted for different audiences..

first, to all my friends who wanna know my life has been.. erm.. one week down program, last week, wednesday, day off, went to CCHY de practice to do some stuff, like prepare for saturday's performance and packing of the timber store.. thursday, went to YYSS to teach drum still.. some of them have a bad attitude to learning drum.. especially the gals... so i was pissed off.. went off at 1730.. didn't give them their free hour of drum coaching...sorta like my personal rule.. 'show me the right attittude, i will teach. if not, bye bye at 5.30pm'.. anyway, the teacher was like chasing me off as well..friday, practice for saturday de performance.. practice area, was at CCHY de timber store. space not large, but i guess we pulled it off.. and special appearance of our zodiac dog(peng hong).. why he is the zodiac dog, it is a long story and ask me personally if you are really interested.. and i got my time table from SIM, as well as the booklist and orientation 'camp' notice.. haven really read throught it detailly.. even missed out the duedate to buy books(ya, we still using books)..BUT 4 BOOKS COST AROUND $170++.. $$$-expensive-$$$ huh.. but nvm, CA and i have decided to buy one set and photocopy our textbooks.. and share cost..saturday, went to performance at NUS.. met the others early in the morning and had breakfast(jumbo tank and hot chocolate at the canteen there, great meal!).. due to the terrian or terrian of NUS, the transportation of drums was a little not as smooth as other performance.. i had to move 7 drumstands from the carpark to the auditorium.. with vertical height difference of lets say 3 metres.. i had to climb 3 flights of steps consisting of 23 steps(ca counted it) in each flight of steps..lucky dennis was there to help me move my drum.. the performance went well, except the fact that the speaker before us, over-ran his speech like half an hour..and made our wait super hilarious(with tony and dennis around).. but we can't make noise.. lol..(oops, cannot at backstage).. tony's ribcage is 'bendable' by the way..and when i was trying to set an expression on stage, i stared at a few of the audience(mostly forigners btw), one of the male audience gave me a reply expression of a smirk,or smile combined with a blink, i was totally confused by wat that was supposed to mean.. sunday til today, work for my dad.. really shorthanded, got containers coming in, racks that need to be dismentled and new rack to assemble...huge delieveries.. so and so lar.. then now bloggong lo..

second, to the pple in ZingO.. i have a lot of different thoughts of how ZingO is gg to turn out in the future.. in the previous generation of chung-gO, aka wu jiang, all of them,djw,d vincent,edmnd,yong hui, kelvin and aw, wat has remained is djw and d vincent.. the otheres have not been really on to drun..they may have their own reasons , but i feel that the unity between then has drifted elsewhere besides drum..then, T-gO, saying of the current menbers in ZingO, after graduating from TP, after you all go find jobs, will you drift away as well?? some have.. Fu-gO..O levels right now, i hope you guys will come back still after your O levels.. now the current generation of Chung-gO, the 12 zodiacs.. regardless of which schools we went, i still see us as 12 zodiacs..tony, me, ruo han, eugene,xjw,zi ming,teck wee, dennis,belson,chun ann,peng hong and edvwin...left with 10 and out of the ten, one in army..the filteration has occured.. will it still continue til we are tripled filtered as like how we were the residue since secondary school? i dunno the answer and i hope the the 10 of us will not become the filtrate but always the residue in ZingO.. guys, can we have a pact not to abandon each another like how the previous generation did?

personal footprints..
life of loner is no longer a pain in the neck.. i am getting used to it..

hope to find a parnter when sch starts and forget abt you.. edvwin's nick"to lose you is hard,to stop loving you is harder, and forgetting you is hardest to do." the song on the blog is to you..p,i said i have got over you.. but i haven.. looking at the photos you took with him on the yatch and in korean evokes the feelings i am trying to surpress down for the longest time with the greatest efforts.. jealousy, anger, lost.. CA asked me, ' ong, how come you dun wanna get a galfriend?', i was dumbfounded at the moment..i feel so lost, i cant answer a question i should know very well.. fuck these feelings..
love is a addiction in a form of sweets.. it appears so nice and feels nice.. but prolong love can lead to disappointment and love turns ugly..

ong lai