very sian.

hi there..

feeling down,dejected and very sian from yesterday..

well another gal with her name only an alphabet difference came to confront me with some issues of MY BGR..

well she has her point but then, it is like ok, you can go use glass to slit your arms or wat ever i care but then influencing others to be sad? wTF!

anyway, found out that i am absent in my stead's life for like most of the times, but then i can't really help it due to our difference in our schedules and work load..

i have my studies and homework and you have your o levels and preparation to do..

i study and more free on weekdays and often busy with drum and family business over the weekend..
you have school on weekdays and thus busy.. weekends is your free time but then i can be there..

i am like so dishearten over this lar..

1)your O level is approaching and i dun wanna distract you with dates..

2)meeting up during our overlying free times, which is evenings, limits wat we can do..

3)i have pressure from your friends and mum that we are not like a couple,then i was questioning myself.. it this our relation and theirs? you and i know that even we can't always be side by side,you know where i am and i am definitely not goofing around..

4) it is the scarcity of our time together that makes our dates ever so precious and we know we must cherish it IS IT NOT?

5) why must these issues pop up now..

feels like escaping thou now.. hope this sat de date will do us good and shut the mouths of others..

me,
dejected
escaping from life
dun wanna think abt it too much..