Imprefection

Photos from my phone again.

The Unperfect mE.

Looking at the 10pm TV series on chanel U, “Perfect Cut” recently provided me with many insight about life. It was especially so when the ideas are abstract and portrayed by good-looking actors and actors who manages to push the emotions/’feel’ to fit the ‘Perfect Beings” look.

As you might have seen from the video above, there were several eye candies from the two planets; the dudes, Thomas Ong, Julian Hee, as well as the babes, Michelle Chia, Constance Song, Apple Hong, Felicia Chin and Joey Swee with her inner beauty more then external beauty.

As the show slowly progress, the external perfection with Botox, skin tightening, double eyelid, breast enhancement, etc was portrayed with the positive light, but that didn’t get me into the perfection thinking mode, my sister included after she saw how much pain the ladies went through just to get bigger breast or their vagina tighten or pricked by needles. This was how the show started, but as the plot slowly unfolds, things get more complicated and the mature themes got into me. -.- One day, I went to have my haircut and looked into the mirror for the longest duration recently. I realized that my single eyelid eyes are uneven, and with the media portraying the perfection models not only in The Perfect Cut but also the movies like Red Cliff, I realized that I am not perfect.

Imperfect, I have to constantly remind myself that everyone is imperfect to suppress the urge to save money to go for an eyelid operation to even both eyes and cut flab future to gain a body like Julian’s. Then, Lasik came into my mental thoughts, being half myopic is a disadvantage even if I can see perfectly well with one eye.

All the physical imperfection got into me and I sort of put that behind me until I reminded myself that I don’t have the inner beauty to make up for the external perfection. I am imperfect inside out. -.- imperfect with looks and brains and emotionally, I find it hard not to think about the ways to be more perfect, although I know I’ll never have the money to be perfect via the knife.

Some quotes that left a deep impression on me from the show:
“There are no ugly people, only poor people” – Alex Tan
“There are no fat People, only lazy people” – Sky Tan
“Everyone has a psychological problem; it only differs on the seriousness of it.”—Kelly
“Using inner beauty to compensate for the flawed exterior” – Song lyrics
“Inner beauty?! Who can see that?” – Bobby Low
“People are interested me for my money, you are interested with your patients for their money too!” Some Auntie to Alex Tan
“Why will you want to be someone else’s shadow when you can be yourself? – Kelly
“Does the opinion of others really matter?” -- Kelly

Anyway, that’s all fro the show since it has ended and there will be little chance that I will be able to watch it again, unless Channel U rebroadcast at a convenient timing.

Feeling imperfect makes it hard to accept criticism during drum practice, maybe even beyond the 8 hours of drum to life. However, remembering the last quote, I realized that I am overly sensitive.

Till next time.

ONg LAi