re-learning and un-learning.

been decomposing at home for the past 6 days.

today, finally going back to camp. seems like my body has recovered about 91% or so. hope that i'll be allowed to do IPPT tmrw although I'm not too sure of what i can achieve since i have not been training nor exercising for the past week.

during these 6 days, i've tried to rest as much solely at home with the occasional trips out to get food and some items. otherwise, the time was spent on in front of my laptop. I finished watching naruto shipuden til the latest episode on crunchyroll.com and even the lastest manga on onemanga.com . it was so boring and exciting at the same time as the anime series was very draggy but providing thrills and twists time to time. but then watching all of the episodes isn't really enjoyable nor something i'm proud of. that was what i could do apart from sleeping.

tried to watch TV and do reading of both intellectual material and the non-intellectual. the latter belongs to the realm of comics and the former, reader digest, my financial book and some of my past notes. reading seems to be wrong at home. How i wished i could bask inside Starbucks a whole afternoon reading. but then being socially responsible, i didn't. come to think of it, i regretted a bit not doing that but assured a whole lot more that i didn't went out to spread my viruses to the other coffee lovers.

i also reconnected with the television, something that i disconnected after hitting 2nd semester. ahah. now looking at television, the glam and attractiveness of it seems to diminished and i don't really enjoy that. so it's so easy to disconnect that away and fit back to camp life.

i guess that the rule that don't allow us to go out on MC period is to prevent us from interacting too much with the 'outside' world and relearning too much of the stuff you do and really enjoy. when you re learn too much, the unlearn will be too much to handle and hence you dread going back to camp. maybe that is a continuous process for us every time we step out of the gates. but going through the gates is definitely much better than jailed at home.

done most of the preparations to book in tonight. maybe affected by book in feelings, the last few hours seem really precious, although i have nothing much to do.. haha.

sticking to listening to music and reading comics.

back to camp soon,
YuJun