Yo PPLE!

now working at my dads' shop.. no customers so blog lor..

actually i got nth to blog anyway.. posting very frequently nowadays.. every night will online and post.. post so frequently til pple won't bother to tag and let me know how are my post or my newly changed skin nice or not.. anyway. this very existing song is for julie de.. hope that she won't freak out.. haha..

MORE POSTS, LESS TAGS.. HUAT AR!( i promised my mum to not say 'haiz' to when i wanna say 'haiz', i will go like 'huat ar!'..)

then didn't go do any more online quizzes le.. intimidated by hend's number of quizzes done.. HUAT AR!

then when is my paycheck coming??? i got my things-to-buy-lists ready.. like shorts and bag... maybe another pair of shoe? and i also promised my friend to treat him to lunch or dinner.. but this time for a different reason.. and i wanna go watch movie.. no one to go with me and no money.. so it still boils down to money which is still relatedto paycheck..so..erm.. SX, paycheck for Feb pls.. march gg to end le leh.. HUAT AR!

then yesterday de drum practice was quite fun.. with jeremy.. i was coaching him personally as teck li was preparing him for CMI standards.. i think i coach him til JMI standards... after coaching him, i guess i am cosidered as a pervert, and jeremy is more perverted. why? i told jeremy that if he did not meet up to my expectations, i will punish him.. and after the practice, he sort of accumilated 16 faults.. then the punishment.. it was chest-pinching sessions.. 16 consceutive pinches.. alternating from the left chest to the right and back to the left.. ok lar.. i wasn't that bad and i only pinch him 14 times.. Chun Ann did the remaining two.. CA is sick de lor.. he last time pinch me, now got open wound which sometimes still bleeds.. but the perverted guy was not me nor CA..it was jeremy, he still could laugh after being pinched(really nice smile that he've got).. he was so happy.. wth.. then i check, two big patch of freshly pinch red chest.. then teck li highlighted to me.. him nipples are erected.. wa, i guess jeremy really liked the punishment..

haha.. ok lar.. dun continue reveal wat we do during drum pratice lar..

at 2200hrs yesterday, channel 5's new show, after hours.. quite nice lar.. showed me the side of awkward relations of the young yet older than me de adults.. 'bring it to the next level' .. wat does it mean to you?..(pls tag and reply).. oh , utt got raped by linda in the show(utt got a nice body i guess).. but before that, linda push utt into the door which did not open as expected and it was quite a funny NG..hah

haha.. my cousin wanna use the com for DOTA le.. later at night then online ba..

ONg LAi

saw a couple holding hands today at interchange..

ask abt my love life...

suddenly got flashbacks.

i saw myself on the stage taking photos when i saw her walked out of the glass doors in her dress,passing the others talking abt the old times we all went thru the past 4 years..

she was gg to meet her bf..

my heart was totally smashed into a million bits..

4 months have past..

i still remember the pain i experienced when i told her to be happy with him.. i hated the name.. his name..i still do..

it was when i think i really know love.. it is when the pain made me collasped into thinking that i was a fool to devote all of myself to make you happy.. but i did not regret being that fool..the collaspe was a fruitful one.. time is not so kind to let you go back in the past so as to let you know wat love is..

i had try hard to forget abt you and didn't even dare to face you more than 5 times for the past nearly 4 months..

but i have to thank time, cause time will heal all wounds, and i moved on with some of my deepest scars left untreated, frozen in time..

i wanna leave it that way, to remind of myself wat i did for my first love that did not even blossom into a flower.. not to mention a fruit..

but today i moved on.. i have started noticing other gals,thinking if there is a possibility for the future? it was something i didn't do when i was blinded by her presence in the past.. this unfamiliar action, is this labelled as an action of a flirt? i dunno if it is right to be like this.. but i still continue to do it.. i dunno.. my first came too fast that i missed out the search part..

am i like desperate for love? have i really give up on my first? i can't answer these two question myself.. who can answer me? WHO? i feel guilty, to her and the her-s in the future.. will i treat the future her-s as a subsitute for her? will i regret if i discontinue this wait for her? i told her i moved on.. wat if i was lying to her without knowing it myself? WILL IT BE FAIR? to her? to her-s? to me? i really dunno..

really dunno..

dunno..

no..

shattered by questions and binded by hopes...

YO pple

done a lot of online testes or quizes.. life have been bored.. nth to post.

except for that stupid ping wan on !19 de blog.. she had to step on my foot to enrage me.. haiz.. nvm..

the online tests and quizes results..

Your EQ is 167

50 or less: Thanks for answering honestly. Now get yourself a shrink, quick! 51-70: When it comes to understanding human emotions, you'd have better luck understanding Chinese. 71-90: You've got more emotional intelligence than the average frat boy. Barely. 91-110: You're average. It's easy to predict how you'll react to things. But anyone could have guessed that. 111-130: You usually have it going on emotionally, but roadblocks tend to land you on your butt. 131-150: You are remarkable when it comes to relating with others. Only the biggest losers get under your skin. 150+: Two possibilities - you've either out "Dr. Phil-ed" Dr. Phil... or you're a dirty liar.

What's" Your EQ (Emotional Intelligence Quotient)?

What kind of soul do you have?
Neutral Soul

The world is a scale to you. You see what others don\'t in ways people can only dream. The strongest of anybody you join a fight only when one side is becoming to strong. Everything happens for a reason to you and you make sure that reason is balance. The Neutral soul is often one that sits back with Huge amounts of inner strength waiting until they are needed to keep balance.

Take this test

Leo - Your Love Profile

Your positive traits: You're almost always the center of attention - and easy for potential dates to spot Your happiness and optimism is appealing to all... and contagious! You don't hold grudges - getting over little fights is no problem for you Your negative traits: You tend to ignore relationship problems, until they are too big to handle You crave luxury, and you are disappointed with partners who can't provide you with it If someone does you wrong, you'll coldly and cruelly break their heart Your ideal partner: Someone high status enough to bring you more attention - but not so great that they upstage you Makes you laugh and brings excitement to everything you do together Is aggressive and confident enough to butt heads with you every so often Your dating style: High expectations. You need to be impressed with an incredible first date for a second one to occur. Your seduction style: You like to make the first move - you're fearless about initiating things Passionate. You really get into any intimate act. Aggressive. Most of the time, you find yourself wanting sex more than your partner. Tips for the future: Try to not need so much attention. You'll feel less ignored, guaranteed. Learn to love your partner for who they are - not how they help advance your life. Let your partner shine occasionally. You don't always have to be the alpha dog. Best color to attract mate: Gold Best day for a date: Sunday

What's Your Love Profile?

Your Birthdate: August 14

People wouldn't take you for a passionate person - and that's where they'd be wrong. You can develop deep emotions quickly, and you're the type most likely to move in with someone after a few dates. Number of True Loves You'll Have: 6 Number of Times You'll Have Your Heart Broken: 3 You are most compatible with people born on the 5th, 14th, and 23rd of the month.

What Does Your Birth Date Mean For Your Love Life?

You Are 76% Perfectionist

You are a true perfectionist. You are both demanding of yourself and others. While it's great to have goals and standards, they don't need to be sky high!

Are You a Perfectionist?

You Are Apple Green

You are almost super-humanly upbeat. You have a very positive energy that surrounds you. And while you are happy go lucky, you're also charmingly assertive. You get what you want, even if you have to persuade those against you to see things your way. Reflective and thoughtful, you know yourself well - and you know that you want out of life.

What Color Green Are You?

Your Attitude is Better than 60% of the Population

You have a good attitude. While a realist, you do see the positive side of most things. People love to be around you.

How's Your Attitude?

Your Element Is Earth

You excel at planning and strategizing. You could be a champ at chess or Survivor. Well grounded, you are able to be realistic and rationalize. On the inside, you have a hard core. It's tough to phase you. You are super productive, and you are able to think anything through. Focused and super charged, your instincts are a good guide for your next step.

What's Your Element?

You Are a Pessimist

If things are going good, you can always imagine how they will turn for the worse. And when things do happen to be bad, life is like a dark pit you can't crawl out of. One bad moment can ruin your day, and you think one bad week can ruin your life. Things are much better than they seem. Just take time to see everything that's going right.

Are You An Optimist or Pessimist?

You Are An ENTJ

The Executive You are a natural leader - with confidence and strength that inspires others. Driven to succeed, you are always looking for ways to gain, power, knowledge, and expertise. Sometimes you aren't the most considerate person, especially to those who are a bit slow. You are not easily intimidated - and you have a commanding, awe-inspiring presence. You would make a great CEO, entrepreneur, or consultant.

nowadays ,there are too many online tests and it makes me wonder whether they are true or not...

What's Your Personality Type?

hi.. blogging again.. saw kai's blog and went to take the same IQ test..




she was so high after getting 117.. then i need to celebrate at a bar or not?



and some pics from the asiasoft event..

phototake with nu nai

asiasoft raid activity

some of us has bra tan lines

and below, teck wee in mini shirt..

YO PPLE!

i had lots of ideas on wat to blog yesterday and today.. but well, after getting really angered by drum teaching today, i sort of lost my thoughts and hopefuly later can remember and blog abt it..

monday,

went to CCHY to see them practise and sad to say, the some pple are not as commited as in the past le.. then after practice, went home to have dinner and was called out by SX to go check some things out.. at lourie road there.. the place is quite large and walking there easily exhaust me.. getting old liao lar.. but didn't find wat we went there for... anyway, the 'highlight of the night was SX getting quite emo.. when i met him, he called djw to give him great missions ( i watched too much naruto nowadays liao lar).. a few things to mantion was to beef the rest of ZingO-ians with a more chinsled body and train our leadership and teamspirit.. that made the atmosphere that evening very stern...

tuesday,

wotked at dad's shop the whole day without sleeping, even though the customer flow was not high.. it is considered as a personal achievement sia... at night, loved the weather.. feels like autunm before it started raining.. but the rain cooled the night as well...

today,

woke up to see a sms reply which really confused me.. waiting for wat?(to that person).. then i fell asleep again.. at 0940hrs, i was awake by vibrations caused by my phone.. it was CA, called me up to ask me out to complete the shopping session with SX.. we did get wat we wanted today as we browsed more shops( or gardens) and found what we was finding... the only sian-diao was the gardens was so big that we actually got tired by walking around.. found an excellent place to hold meetings at JiMei flower shop but i dun reckon we will do it there as it would be awkward.. one of the garden was selling stone tables for gardens.. we came across a green marble table which was cool! i mean it really cools your butt when you sit on it.. i liked it a lot...

then i was like the heavy-duty duty man again.. i had to carry the pot stand back to CCHY.. haiz.. sometimes and somethings, i just have to bear with it and try to get used to it... had lunch at khatib we were complaining abt the portion of food and quality but reminded that other C3s are serving worse quality food and had to be content with wat we have..

went to CCHY to help CA teach drum as he was resting in timber store(note to those who think i dun like CA: i am not, i am just being frank*second last post*).. he has really made a habit of making the room his recuperating area(out if all places).. well things went smoothly except for the fact that attendence was bad.. although today was an optional practice, should you treat it so lightly? we made time to come down and this is wat we get.. should we not come next time when you guys are for optional practice unless all are present ? the thing is not abt you being tired and skipping practice as and when you want.. it si abt team spirit. .you just skip it just like that to play ball, then when all the others are progressing, are you gg to be there waiting for a package of skills, knowledge to drop in front of you and then reach the other's level? (like that is gg to happen)...and without doing the same things as the others, how to bond and get in tune with the others to be A GROUP? drumming is not just knowing how to play but sharing that special something with your co-drummers... how can this get screwed into your thick skull?

i am such a nag to this topic, i know but i can't help it lar.. i could have used this afternoon to finish my application to SIM.. but my consolation prize was edwin and kitman turned up even if they had a tiring NCC activity.. "life has its holes in life and other things to fill those holes up.."

tmr,

will be gg to finish my application at SIM and teach drum at YYSS in the afernoon.. sort of sian diao by today's event, dunno tmr teach wat.

anyway, let it pass ba..

ONG LAI

YO PPLE!

performance at People's Asociation(PA) for AsiaSoft de "gamers like sports)..

had a whole series of Highs and Lows(HL)..

morning, i woke up only at 0630 and was late to meet the others by a few minutes.. but i wasn't the latest.. shi xiong was the second runner-up(usually he was the champion of being late).. the champion is ruo han today.. i called him at around 5mins past seven and his dad told me he was still sleeping.. then we came up with a few plans cause of him.. like whether to take cab, whether to wait for him.. but he made the wisest move.. take bus 250 (flag-down rate).. and he reached earlier than us.. he made us seems as if we were late when we reached..

anyway, the event was kinda boring without the intended atmosphere..(the pple who were queueing up was like half-asleep cause they seems to be have phiang level at maple yesterday night lar.. ).. to me, the main purpose for the event is to let the PARENTS of gamers to FEEL that their kids are not obessed with gaming although they are.. well, the event was a sucess anyway.. so was the performance..

our bonus was that we met the audition de "nu nai".. well from tony, he didn't feel the 'superstar' auara from nu nai.. so didn't i .. without computer edits and lots of make-up, he looked a little plain.. but i think he was still ok.. he is quite a friandly guy..but a little too friendly.. he said that i was fat( keep pointing to his flat tummy when i was walking toward him), then said tony was very skinny(karated on tony chest trying to break tony's thin skeleton).. then remarked, ' i gan dao hen yuan shi '.. praised ZingO's costume(we were half-naked ma).. after the photo-taking session with him, he must suan one more person.. Ruo Han.. "e-ee, hai you mao yea!"said milk.. it was in pure taiwan accent when seeing something fascinating.. but the most interesting is his fans.. not a lot todazy but v ery funny.. dun wanna go to the details.. or later offend pple.. cause if i say wat was so funny, it is equivalent to insulting the fan of nu nai..al i can say is that she really LOVES NAI.. psst, we waited damn long for him lar..

then after event we all went to eat prawn noodles at $8 a bowl.. it is so ex lar.. although it was quitew nice initially when the soup tasted nice and noodles not soggy.. we finished our food anf like always , waited for sx to finish his talk before leaving.. think of it as couresty for lao kok kok.. haha..

having a bad headache now.. hear from Chun Ann that the SIM package come le.. just need to open mail and take it then... tmr also got CCHY practice.. hope headache will not persist til tmr.. or i will create a lot of troubles..

ONG LAI

YO PPLE!

my life is too infused with drum for me not to blog abt drums.. so if you dun wanna read, there is always the red colour box with a white x at your right hand side corner..

well, practice today was quite ok, lots of sun and lots of sweat and lots of emo feelings..

..lots of sun..
the sun today was scorching and really drain everyone's energy to 10% i guess..

..lots of sweat..

well for those who only have to cue us to play the rythms while we play the rythms and sweat it out(wat we were practising can make you sweat quite a bit), dun 'complain' that your shirt is not smelly as you didn't sweat much.. we doing all the cardios lar.. you just 'ta ta ta ta'...

the sun combined with the action-packed rythms, made us sweat damn much lar.. MAYBE WE CAN MEASURE HOW MUCH SWEAT WE CAN GENERATE BY SQUEEZING THEM OUT OF OUR SHIRTS? that's an idea sia..

..Lots of EMO feelings..

1)apologised to the FuHua guy, said that i am sorry i pushed him last week, he ignore me and just walked away.. wtf! anyway, i tried to resolve this misunderstandind and this is the outcome.. so i can only just say two things.. "fuck it lar.. " and " he is quite pretty(xiao qi) for a guy lar.. " but then came back home and think wat would happen if i dun resolve his understanding abt me.. like wat if we need to cooperate o some ZingO matters and we dun get things done.. that would be too unprofessional le.. haiz.. but i came up with the excuse of the year and think that everything will be alright.. *drum roll*(my blog needs more of this) the excuse of the year.. *more drum rool* "aiya, i not president or vice-president, won't have that kind of cooperation things happening betw me and him de lar.. if have, ask president and vice president to do lor.." ...... haha, how's tat! it is combined with no sense of responsibility, no logic and denial thinking.. that's why it is THE EXCUSE OF THE YEAR!..

2)chun ann realised that the piece we are playing are slightly different from each another and we tried to standarise it of course.. while i showed him my version(with teck wee, ruo han and tony), he said " diam lar.. dun be so noisy!".. wth? pple, this is chun ann, when things dun get into his way, he would flare up and annoy or irritate you with his temper.. so try to let him get his way lar.. if dun, you will know my feelings.. then just sat by the mini lake and think through things and meanwhile take rest lor... haiz..

3) this third piece of entry is not me but ruo han.. he seems to be very emo today.. he would sit alone or stop talking of out a sudden.. wonder wat hapened to him.. but i guess that is him lar..

ONG LAI

yo pple!







today, was a great day for me..







morning, took bus to YYSS.. no traffic jam, good!







at YYSS, today dun need to teach til 1 pm, so left at 1030 and went to CCHY for practice.. great







then reach CCHY within 20 mnutes(although waited cab for like 45 minutes)and slack.. greater!







lunch at LJS in group of seven(djw,edvwin,chun ann,teck wee,tony,ruo han and myself)*laughs*experienced bad service from LJS(made a joke of out it)..greatest!







went home to sleep..shiok!







went to check mail at khatib and the package from SIM is not here yet.. then ta-pao ban-mian, called SIM to roar at them...haha.. i didn't lar.. just asked ann sum to check for me if i am accepted.. AND IT IS A YES! i was still worrying that if i skip SP, and SIM dun acept me, i would go for an early enlistment.. haha.. GOODEST!







then i was esactic til now.. hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha!







===================================================================







some drum bulletin..







tmr,







YYSS rehearsal for speech day from 9am to 1 pm..







xjw enlistment to khatib camp at 11am.. sooo sorry that i can't be there to send you in..











this sat,







first drum practice with Chun Ann as president and Teck Wee as vice president..i know that everything will work out as it is Chun Ann and Teck Wee overseeing it.. i always feel so usless beside. but as que says, 'then dun compare lor'.. haha.. it is hard but i will try..







this sunday,







performance for ASIA-SOFT(dunno if spell corrfectly or not).. it is the company that is controlling MapleSea or story wat-so-ever.. they promised to give 2 a-cash card worth of 30,000 cash each.. neat right? haha.. bluff you de lar..







===================================================================







then some pictures for you to take a look and relax and laugh lor(if you want)...


tony and his big hands..

gang of seven to funky balls to play pool

Can't Make It Apples?

i thought he wore his underwear outside? then it should be pulled upwards ma.. haha

ONG LAI

this is one of my mini project done with sarah.. a list of 'love is when...' from my friends as well as her's.. then those which i made bold are those which really touch me deep down.. not that the others are not good.. haha.. you know wat i mean.. enjoy!

(you got anymore de hua, tag it pls..)

Love is when…

Love is when… you can’t stop thinking about this boy whom you dun hate, but cant admit to yourself that you like. – mao

Love is when…there’s a strong affection for each other – zijie

Love is when… commitment between 2 souls starts... – wanping

Love is when…you’re willing to sacrifice for him or her, even if they doesn’t know, or isn’t grateful to you. – zhenyu

Love is when…you met the person you are destined for. – kaixin

Love is when i get the feeling thats she the one that's for me-hend

Love is when she sits beside me and smiles sweetly to me- Kelvin

Love is when you feel like chocolate melting in your mouth- Karmen

Love is when.. i felt his heart inside mine – Queenie

Love is when two people complement each other to cover up and make up for each other's flaws to become a perfect couple with two hearts beating as one- Charmaine

Love is when you wanna stay by his side forever, and let time freeze at that moment of happiness, despite the countless times of getting hurt.- Si Hui

Love is when trust exists- Clare

Love is when you feel pain in a relation – Xiao Jun Wen

Love is when you know her heart – Hiu Tung

Love is when you are willing to give up your status to be with him (adapted from TV drama) – chew loo

love is when 2 person share a connection bringing them together and understanding each other - julie

Love is when you feel true happiness just emanating from within you.Love is when you sometimes look like a complete love struck fool.—lizzie

Love is when...both parties are happy, not 1-sided love, regardless of rich or poor. – jun kiat

Love is when you want to have her sleep beside you, see her drool, hear her snore and still think she is the most beautiful. – ong lai

Love is when you are willing to sacrifice. – siang hong

love is when..." you are willing to sacrifice your life for the entire world, forgiving them for their every sin (including you and me) even though they hate you, humiliate you, despise you, torture you and do not believe you. It is the love that Jesus Christ gave to all of us – Erika

Love is when you try to make your loved ones happy even if they do not appreciate it. Love is when you are willing to wait for the ones that you care about to repent no matter how many mistakes they made in the past. - myrin

love is when...the person u like can be by ur side and they will always be happy and smiling -sarah

Love is when there's lots of sparks and lust (attraction) in a relationship and an equal amount of being emotionally satisfied. - katie

ove is when u have to give up wat u always dream to do jus for the gal.. its jus same as a gal wun wan to share u wit another gal(tis gal is same as the stuff u always wanna do) .. : tats y love is super SELFISH .. – da jun wen



Love is..

Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. 1 cor 13- pui yee

love is letting the one u love free. if the person returns to ur side, the person will always b by your side .if the person never returns to you, the love is not yours to begin with.- Kenny Tan

Yo PPle..

today, was an big day for ZingO-ians.. yet when all de others was enjoying themselves, playing ball ,basktball(=_= ) and such.. abd i was feeling kinda emotionless, eh-no, feeling neutral abt the 'celebrations'..

you must be confused right now right?(e-eeh, how come ong lai is saying so confusing things? he soew already ar?) well, i actually might be.. i am now really depressed after a few hours of thinking thru things alone with my pessimistic thinking brain.. let me guide you from this morning..

notified by djw abt today practice, i skipped eating Steamboat with pui yee and other !19-ians.. i wanna be ready for today's energy-draining roud of practice..she seemed to be puzzled why i didn't want to go eat..

anyway, i met up with tony for breakfast and ruo han didn't turn as he overslept(as usual).. having breakfast with tony has always ben fun..he would joke abt everything.. like today, we were eating McDonalds de bangel then he went to poke the hole lar.. he said that it felt good but commented that the bread was hard and tough to chew on.. then i said that he poked the hole and it became hard lar.. *laughs* and since we used those promotions coupons, we got two extra sausage McMuffin with egg for FREE.. plus ruo han's takeaway, we had 4 sausage McMuffin with in a bag.. later, we bluff phyllan that we ordered 1 and the McStaff gave us and he believed us.. we told him the truth later and i regretted treating him my free breakfast item..

*feeling better by a little*

when we reached school, tony and i was drawn to the bkball court and i played ball with them until CA called and said that he will be late so ask me to help me take CCHY for a while until he comes.. so i take over.. it is not a pleasing task as they reminded me of YYSS with lousier attitude to drumming..i scolded them after that out of a moment of folly, yet, i didn't regret scolding them over such simple things since simple things comes before great things..

then there was a ZingO briefing on today's practice and a piece of anticipated news that came a little too sudden for me was announce.. ZingO had a re-structuring.. and CA was promoted to president, replacing djw and teck wee, not exactly promoting, replacing xjw.. i was still ok with the arrangement until i saw the papers that revealed all our 12 zodiac's position.. i am happy that i was not given a big role to play, but felt a little not used to it and quite low that i was in a place not able to influence pple greatly.. but i accept it al without alloeing myself to complain as i knew it was the best arrangement.. rather than me being used to balance powers.. lucky this time, no BGR was invloved.. so i am not used as a tool again.. i am in group 4 with belson.. haha,i can proudly use my bleach bag le.. haha..

then we had a round of gruelling practice and we sweat it out man.. i am starting to re-learn this piece and understanding it at a deeper level..and the sun was super hot.. like always, i got sun-burn again..

during practice, we had abreak for sx to talk with the existing CCHY drummers(he was scolding them actually) and we crowded around him to catch the breeze.. he chase us off as those words was not meant for us.. hence, edvwin, zm and i went to the other side if the parade square and lied beside the pond to enjoy the breeze.. edvwin fell asleep while waiting for practice to resume..and i had a nice chat with zm.. that felt good..

*feeling better also*

then we kept all the drums and went to the promotion buffet.. in the midgt of the buffet, somehow and some what, the others zodiacs was saying that the FH pple was scouts and giving them friendly nipple-pinch(tegn)..and maybe things got serious for me and the FH pple.. and they was minding me pinching them or wateva while not CA or TW.. i am much hated i guess and i am willing to accept that.. it is by nature de ba.. [20mins later] we were at the sports hall and seeing CA being pinned down by the white-glasses de FH guy.. i dunno why, i got my way to those two on the ground and i start un-pinning them and soon trouble started.. Chun ann was bleeding at his eye area but that was not caught my attention.." kan-ni-na! push wat Push?!".. it was one of the other FH boys.. as i think i pushed him out of my way to 'rescue CA'.. i think i got to irrational and i just walked away tending to CA's wound first.. then tony came to the toliet saying 'wat happened? how come they scold kan-ni-na?'.. then i knew how serious things was.. so to avoid more trouble, i retreated to the timber store to play with RH and tony's NDSL.. even went to the toliet to vent my anger(by hitting the walls).. if i dun say it here, who would have noticed it?(except xjw who picked up a bit of disorder from me ba).. i had a thought to say sorry to him when i see him next time but it depends if i will have the courage then.. i just dun wan a misunderstanding to wreck things between me and the FH pple.. haiz.. it would be a pity.. but maybe saying sorry won't solve the problem ba..

after 1530hrs, we left school.. sx and djw went to m'sia to see the temple festival and tony, belson, teck wee and myself to OCC to play pool.. i was feeling guilty as i ps sx to go play pool..

went to develop photos and bought dinner to go with wat was cooked at home.. while eating and writing this post, my mind was trying to focus and composing my mind to a better mood but i think it is not working..

i am still kinda depressed..

Chatted with mervin and i came up with a phrase..'time is not so kind to let you go back in time and unhurt her because only then you will know wat love is..'
waiting for que to bath finish and chat with me then try to feel better ba.. shauna is only adding to my depression level now but i dun really wan tell her..

PS ,i know it might sound extreme,but i vomitted my dinner into the toliet bowl as i am frustated over wat happened betw me and the FH guy.. now feeling kinda hungry as well.. wateva lar.. things have not been gg for me pleasantly any smoothingly for me...

YO pple!

it has really been sometime since i blogged..my personal life is not exciting. i even think that it is down right boring.. so let this post be pure drum-related..

for the past few weeks de thursday, i have been gg down to YYSS to teach drum.. teaching them some impt basics which they have not really achieved wat i wanted them to do.. if any YYSS students get to see this, YOU ALL ARE WEAK AT YOUR STRENGTH CONTROL AND REMEBERING YOUR SCORES..

then these few saturdays, ZingO practice has been fairly well,i guess.. i see more pple turning up.. but we are not at our full strength yet.. and because of our various backgrounds, we have very strong bonds betw our own cliques.. hence ZingO can be divided into 4~5 cliques.. and different cliques have different levels of commitment, skills and attitude..and i feel that all of us haven been A group ,really not united.. djw got highlight the problems and signs of our lack of teamspirit.. and i had to admit to most of his points and i can't really do anything unless i can do mind-control..to all ZingO-ians, pls heed his words.. thank you..
but i am really glad we are getting 9 out of the 12 zodiacs to come to ZingO and practice and because of that, we managed to do more than wat we did in the past..sincere thanks to my companions( rat,tiger,dragons,snake,horse,monkey,chicken and pig)..

the past performances included the performance at SPH which i seriously corked up and perform lousy..i give myself a F9 for that performance.. then a week later got a performance at main school.. i have to give myself an A1 for that performance.. althought in the midst of the performance i was out of the beat during my solo, i still give myself A1(usually A2).. it is because i gave a small speech to an audience of agaration 200 pple.. and i prepared it within 30mins.. is was actually meant to wish the audience happy new year de.. but the emcee suddenly asked me to introduce wat jie ling was and it was 10seconds before my 'speech'.. so in the 'wish you gong xi fa cai' part, i was still doing ok.. but to the ' jie ling' part, i totally chui diao.. i got tongue-tied when i saw the current pricipal, mr ang, miss wong and the others teachers.. then i will say sorry, then start over again get tongue-tied over again.. but i made it at least.. plus i did wat i was expected to do.. so still ok..hahahaha..
and that performance we wore clothes.. hahaha..cause the audience was conversertive pple(in school, you not conversertive still must be).. i was happy that i dun need to bare my flabby torso to my teachers.. heng ar..

then now got a hyper-challenge project coming on.. the SYF opening.. a lot of demanding requirements and problems of all sorts.. but i guess we just have to hang it there and get the things done..cause it will be a hyper weapon that we have only now to elimnate all those chap-pa-lang groups.. those invloved in this project, jia you jia you jia you!

ong lai