feeling kind of emo these few days..

maybe it is the stress of the art fest perfromance..

i am not the first of the stress chain..

but then i sort of am forced/stressed by the most..

'ong lai, you got it or not'

'ong lai, you stupid leh!'

"ong lai, move the drums."

"ong lai, ni hen lan leh"

"ong LAI, ni tqa se me da pian?"

i am a kind of person who is most affected by words normally.. then if your words are abusive, i will slowly wind up and start to feel uncomfortable and maybe one day, i wil snap and start unleashing the potential energy that i bulit up as a result of enduring shity stress..

but for the sake of friendship and perfrmance, i will avoid my screws to be loose..

i had enough of pple treating me like a vessel that they shout into when they are not feeling good.. i am a tool, regardless if i am just a lorry that moves drum or just some graphic machine that draws out what you need to see.. i feel totally like a robot when in drum nowadays... only can listen to instructions and no voice if my own.. wat i have to do , is wat i am instructed to do.. or wat you expects me to do... wat abt my own thoughtss?

dennis can say this and that, tony you won't scold, treats zi ming like a landmine, not stepping onto such and such..

wat abt me! fuc kthis unfair world..

cause i wanted to please everyone, i end up being bullied.. this is beyond disipline.. this involves basic humans respect.. i was too kind to all of you.. therefore i was mistreated.. who wil halp me nowadays?

drink out of my stuff, expecting me to move the drums into formation alone.. when i needed help, who ever helped?

fuck fuck fuck!

i dunno if i should stay in ZingO le..

i feel miserable very time i am in contact with him....

i gave in a lot, my time with friends in school, my attention in classes, gave up her..

wat do i get?!

MORE EXPECTATIONS TO WORK LIKE A COW..

SHUT THE FUCK UP AND DO WORK ATTITUDE FROM OTHERS..

i am so pissed, i am afraid i will do thing tat am eventually forced to do.. like my old phone..

crushed in my hands as i was angry..

this time, i wish i can crush your bones or neck!

yet there is this side of me that wants peace within and try to resolve things in another way.. communication communication... why does he have a fuck-up ears that canot hear words other than 'oh, you look so good',' oh your FGS is good'...

i need to stop blogging le.. else my keyboard might be crushed..

i will try to tell chun ann how i feel and hope everyone else can cooperate and let me finish..

let me have the strength to do it..

pls.

YO PPLE!

this post is gg to be really short as i used the time to blog here to blog on our prom blog...

yes, i went to the prom blog and typed something there..

haha.. go se if you are free ... even you are not in our cohort.. lol..

kk..

night! (tonight is cold and very windy.. i like..)

ong lai

lots of quizes

continued part of blogthings testes..

You Are 65% Burned Out

You are very burned out. You need a huge break from your responsibilities, starting as soon as possible. And you need this time to reevaluate what you really want out of your life. Because you're working hard and going no where... and that would burn anyone out!

Are You Burned Out?

You Are Pretty Happy

You generally have a happy, fulfilling life. But things could be a little better, and deep down, you know it. Maybe you need more supportive friends or a more challenging career. Something is preventing you from being totally happy. You just need to figure out what it is!

How Happy Are You, Really?

You Have Your Sarcastic Moments

While you're not sarcastic at all times, you definitely have a cynical edge. In your opinion, not all people are annoying. Some are dead! And although you do have your genuine moments, you can't help getting your zingers in. Some people might be a little hurt by your sarcasm, but it's more likely they think you're hilarious.

How Sarcastic Are You?

You Have Low Self Esteem 40% of the Time

Generally, you feel pretty darn great about who you are, even when you mess up or fail. Occasionally, a huge setback will make you question yourself, but you pick yourself up quickly.

How is Your Self Esteem?

Your Life is Rated R

Your life is definitely adults only. While children accompanied by parents are welcome, they'll probably be scarred for life.

What is Your Life Rated?

Your Intrapersonal Intelligence Score: 75%

Your Intrapersonal Intelligence is High You have a great understanding of who you are, and your place in the world. You know what path you're on. And you are excited about your future. You're always deepening your inner knowledge and introspection. And enjoying it every step of the way.

How Does Your Intrapersonal Intelligence Rate?

You Are a Great Liar

You can pretty much pull anything over on anyone. You are an expert liar, even if you don't lie very often.

Are You a Good Liar?

Your Aura is Blue

Spiritual and calm, you tend to live a quiet but enriching life. You are very giving of yourself. And it's hard for you to let go of relationships. The purpose of your life: showing love to other people Famous blues include: Angelina Jolie, the Dali Lama, Oprah Careers for you to try: Psychic, Peace Corps Volunteer, Counselor

What Color Is Your Aura?

Your Love Style is Agape

You are a caring, kind, and selfless partner. Unsurprisingly, your love style is the most rare. You are willing to sacrfice your world for your sweetie. Except it doesn't really feel like sacrifice to you. For you, nothing feels better than giving to the one you love.

What's Your Love Style?

You Are 68% Gentleman

You are definitely a gentleman. You're very considerate and you have excellent manners. Occasionally, you slip and do something foolish... but usually no one notices!

Are You A Gentleman?

Your Boss Is Psycho

Your boss isn't just a bad boss... Your boss is a little nuts. You should probably get a new job, before your boss is able to blame you for things going wrong.

Is Your Boss Psycho?

Your Rising Sign is Capricorn

Old fashioned and conservative, you carry yourself with dignity. You have a tough exterior, and you can be intimidating when you want to be. Hard working and ambitious, you can survive in the most cut throat work enviroments. Outside of work, you are a true friend to everyone in your small inner circle. You may have had a difficult time earlier in life. Capricorns are late bloomers and you may be coming into your own right now.

What's Your Rising Sign?

hahah this is all for today i guess...

ong lai

yo pplE!

ok.. knida bored t home until gg out later.. been checking mail and checking blogs.. then came across wan's blog.. she has been doing tests as well.. so went to do the same one as her's and others.. haha second part of the resurrection of quiz fever!

You Are Lightning

Beautiful yet dangerous People will stop and watch you when you appear Even though you're capable of random violence You are best known for: your power Your dominant state: performing

http://www.blogthings.com/whattypeofweatherareyouquiz/">What Type of Weather Are You?

You Should Drive a Ford Explorer SportTrac

Tough and supercharged, you have some rather extreme driving practices.You've been known to intimidate a few drivers. You rule the road.

http://www.blogthings.com/what2007carshouldyoudrivequiz/">What 2007 Car Should You Drive

Your Personality is Very Rare (INTP)

Your personality type is goofy, imaginative, relaxed, and brilliant. Only about 4% of all people have your personality, including 2% of all women and 6% of all menYou are Introverted, Intuitive, Thinking, and Perceiving.

http://www.blogthings.com/howrareisyourpersonalityquiz/">How Rare Is Your Personality?

haha, that's for today lar.. gg off to create a bank acount before sch i guess..

ONg LAi

Uneasy Day

YO PPle!

(this is a really long post to entertain pple who wanna read abt me and my life, ah myrin, you are in the list..maybe you are the list)

today is a oh-so-fine day! NOT! woke up to a rainy morning.. so took my cap and left for school.. braved through the rain to the bustop.. felt kinda of chilly on the bus.. but didn't really bothered me.. then after reaching thomson, i waited for the damned(pardon me) bus 52.. i reached the bustop at 0815, then waited until 0835 then the bus come.. BUT, the bus so sooooo cramp that i cannot squeeze in.. i was like, so sian diao.. but i can't do anything abt that except wait for the next bus 52.. while waiting, i realised that all the other bus services that had to stop at this bustop were coming non-stop.. 6 bus 163, 5 bus 162, 4 bus410, 3 bus 167 and 3 bus 980.. i think the public bus system is getting stupid! THE BUS SERVICES THAT NO ONE BOARD KEEPS COMING AND THE BUS52 THAT HAD A LOT PASSENGERS(poly and SIM students) ARE WAITING DUN COME! ok, i getting too enraged le.. i dunno if there are other reasons why there have to such high frequency buses ,like 163, around.. anyway, i am not gg to complain anymore.. i know you peeps out there dun like to read complaints..

then the next bus came, at 0845.. i am gg to be late.. at times like this, you really hoped that you can orb or fly using a broomstick.. then April sms-ed me asking if i was still going to the music classes(i loved the class, the lecturer is very fun and cute in her own way).. then that kind of consoled me.. since i know there are nice people that i just got to know of and cares abt my attendance.. i guess i had a dark sceondaryschool-hood.. anyway, i was late to classes by 10 mins.. lucky the lecturer dun mind that.. she is very kind.. SHE IS MY FRIEND!(internal joke!).. and i learnt music theory well under her..

after classes, went with uncle shem and his comms group to see the movie "200 pounds beauty".. but lessons ended quite early and the movie starts at 1445.. so we had lots of time to kill.. thus we went to PS to kill time and have lunch.. kill time: walk walk, check out the event that was in the middle of PS.. Lunch: felt uneasy.. cause of their topics mentioned over lunch ..

they started with their experience on how their friends went to clubs, got drunk and got injuried... then i was like, ok, my clubbing experirnce is not rich enough to have friends to get drunk and get injuried.. second topic, cars, la-bulls, ferrari,bmw,wat so ever.. erm.. ok, the only cars i got 'research' into is mazda.. which belongs to the category of cars that does not fall into the category they were talking abt.. then the topics just snowballs and i was somewhat like totally lost.. i am not blaming that they left me out in the conversation.. but i just feel so inexperienced.. that means i have to mature in an acclerated mode so i can get into the right topic.. that's how it is going to be.. haha blogging helps me create solution.. anyway, just a side note, i was tellnig Wan abt the uneasy feeling i was having during lunch..then shw was conselling me! when i realised that, i typed to her "COOL! i get free conselling..' then she replied, ' isn't it cool?' she realised that and said that she was entitled to 'airheadness' at times..haha.. wat a hilarious friend..

hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha(let me laugh the unesy feeling off)

thne we went to watch the movie.. it was a great one.. personally, it was even better than spiderman 3.. several factors that contributed to the sucess(for me): 1)great music, especially the kind that can bring the whole atmosphere up.. *listen to the second song on my blog* 2)great storyline.. how it(the movie) was infused with a very tricky social question, is plastic surgery acceptable? , into the movie.. it got me to think over it and a lot of question buxzzing in my mind now that i can occupy myself with.. 3) the precise amt of humour used at the right times.. not like spiderman3.. there was no jokes at the parts of the movie near the climax and climax.. in conclusion, the movie is great.. if you haven. pls go watch..

then after the movie, shem's friend, dominic(sry if i get the spelling wrong) drived me home from the cathay! well. actually from plaza singapore to northpoint in his van which had a couch at the back( which cause the rest of the pple around to call shem and ask if he and donminic are 'COMING' as both of them went to take shem's sweater.) as he had to kill time to until his next appointment at 8 pm.. but still have to thank him for halping me save $1 plus on transport and the standing part on the way back home.. he listens to nice music as well..

then picked up some items at northpoint.. the come home.. saw this tag in my blog.. then blog so much lor.. ;)

ONg LAi
'there are 3 kinds of woman in this world,
1) beautiful ones, treasures
2)average ones, gifts
3) ugly ones, rejects!

there are one kind of men around,
says that plastic surgeries are ok, so as long as it is not their gal.'
by jun-min in the movie..

yo pple..

today nth much GOOD happened..

experienced a very demoralising incident when i actually got 'bullied' by your 'superior' in the
heirarchy but his power and you just can't retaliate with force or words.. just acted emo alone.. if not he is gg to count and do more un-valid punishment..

and i realise that my words and actions dun get into other pple's head as easily as others.. wat i says pple either dun notice or they just ignore me as if my ideas are stupid, cause i am not as talented in drum! i dunno why man.. **** it!!!

this made me think a lot, should i still give in so much for drum? i think my input and yield is totally not correct.. like 99:1.. Arr! pissed with it.. skipped pool to spent something alone and not with the 'superior' ..

nvm.. dun get too engrossed with stupid behaviour from others..

anyway, watch cardcaptor sakura from youtube yesterday... caught some phrases..

there is no conincidence in this world- Clow Leed

water is something that must flow - Clow Leed

then i sort of invented(or adapted) the phrases for the other elements mentioned..

fire is something that is a good servant but not a good master

earth is something that is the start of life

wood is something that can brave strong winds and protect the ones besides them

wind is something that carries the word around

thunder is something that scares pple after lighting fails

ONg LAi

YO PPLE!

second post today.. so high right!

cause the previous one was too short..

went boozing yesterday.. then feels good..

some pictures taken..

the model is not good looking so he turned away.. but this pic is emm.. quite artistic!

mr chun ann a bit more red than his normal skin colour..

he got so high that he agreed to post beside the fishes.. you agar know how much he drank lar..

hahahahahahahahahahhahahahahahahahahahaA

The Revival of the Quiz Fever!

yo pple!

bored at home as lessons only lasted from 11am to 12nn..

been doing stupid stuff..

so this is the results i guess..

You Are Rum

You're the life of the party, and a total flirtYou are also pretty picky about what you drinkOnly the finest labels and best mixed cocktails will doExcept if you're dieting - then it's Diet Coke and Bicardi all the way

http://www.blogthings.com/whatalcoholicdrinkareyouquiz/">What Alcoholic Drink Are You?

ONg LAi

' there is no love in this world' , Mr Mysterious

yo pple!

• sch started
• classes still easy
• great friends
• no drums coaching yet
• admiting i am a male chauvInist(corrected by miss charmiane)
• and after yesterday's conversation with myrin, i was prompt to think.. how do i define my best friend.. then i finally figured it out after reading DA tou FEN de blog.. my best friend is someone who notices when i am gone and knows i dun feels well(most probably mentally unwell, physical unwell is mostly obvious, but it applies anyway).. when i mummifies, i want my best friend to check on me by the phone and come to find me in person as well.. is that very hard?

Yo PPLE!

my time is getting shorter, after more drum stuff popping up and sch have finally started(finally).. so i am gg to blog in a different way.. when i am in rush of time lar..(i need to go read up on my books for lessons today and tmr.)

first attempt.. blog in point form!

• DRUM




• kinda cooldown session now as a lot of the schools are having exams and i dun need to teach drum at YYSS,which feels quite nice..




• then President Charity Challenge(PCC) is on the 29th of May(tuesday).. at the turf club at kranji.. time:abt 7 pm onwards.. pple who wanna go see, you may contact me to 'reserve some seats'.. just tell me the number of pple coming.. then i help you to see if i can get some seats for you.. performers includes chun ann, ruo han, tony,me,teck wee, and others not confirmed yet..




• 2nd and 3rd june(weekends), art fest, forget at where liao.. but free admission like PCC.. evening time.. performers not really confirmed.. it depends on the scores.. but it is a great achievement for us.. so i hope will get your support..




• 10th june.. still art fest.. but at HDB huh.. time dunno..

• ME




• had UB SIM orientation during friday til sat morning..




• morning was boring speech by SIM student care services(informative but the speakers were quite lame in humour)




• afternoon ran around town area to complete the station games.. it was pretty fun.. our OGLs(pam and mandy) and OG(shem,uncle killer. preston,quiet guy from texas. april,miss willpower. vivien,cheerful gal. li wen,self-proclaimed social smoker and wan,quiet starwars fan..)




• our OG was the quiet one and we managed to get third place(it was a miracle made possible by our OGLs)




• then after we left town area, the whole camp was sadded..




• dinner suck




• night walk suck




• student union was a 100% smoker batch..




• passive smoking through the night..

my forfeit for losing to the other OG..

(i got the worst "make-up")

ong lai

'a boring activity would be when you rush to wait and wait to rush..' shem moo

yo pple!

did this quiz abt myself.. mervin did his and i did mine.. haha.. so try it out.. haha...

quiz : http://www.truefriendtest.com/friendtest/324336

scoreboard : http://www.truefriendtest.com/scoreboard/324336

ong lai

yo pple!

new skin.. cause i think my blog dying so need to resurrect it..

anyway, pardon me for not blogging for so many days.. cause i dun have the time to do so... either doing drum stuff or helping dad at the shop.. i dun feel much guilt for not posting anyway.. cause i know of other pple who haven update for so long le.. *cough*zhen*cough*

then sch is finally gg to start for me.. this coming Thursday will be the start of my orientation.. then Friday is the actual thing(Thursday listen to lots of speeches)... dunno wat will be happening.. and we are gg to stay at changi resort on the friday night.. chun ann can get a lot of business i guess.. FGS : 98536585.. (is this considered as an inside joke?).. but i have made my mind up to leave early on Saturday morning so as not to miss drum practice, even breakfast with tony.. try lar hor..

then actual schooling will be starting next MONDAY! having mixed feelings now and then.. cause the long wait had made me wanting to reactivate my brain next week and meet new pple of this world..
but then because it is the first day of school syndrome.. dun feel like gg.. dunno why.. but still need to study de.. or else the super expensive school fees will be wasted.. haha..

then major performances upcoming.. i hope you guys can take some time out to go see us perform.. details, i will feed you peeps later once i can get the info on it..

1)president charity challenge(PCC) launch.. 29th of may..at kranji turf club.. time around 7pm..

2)art fest, 2nd,3rd and 10th of june.. going around places.. dunno where.. dunno time..

3)SYF concert finale item(sry, need tickets to go in de).. 29th june.. 200 drums performance..

so if you are free for the first two events, hope you guys who are not gg to performing with me, can go see me perform with the others.. art fest de are on weekends evening..maybe can take it as clique outing or class outing ba.. haha..

ong lai

'there is an unromantic side to romantic things in the world after all"

yo pple!

i have stopped playing the nitendo DS le! i actually wanted to return it to ruo han but i guess i keep forgetting abt it.. but i still dun blog that often..

cause this week, i have been quite busy.. meetings for all those up coming performance.. but i not president still have to do this kind of socialising.. huat ar! i guess it is because i am in the performance crew and i as free as mr neo chun ann.. arbo rot at home or do work for my dad which is very sian..

haiz.. it was actually meeting those different pple in this world and hearing abt their stories of life.. heard of one today, but i just tell you wat she told me regarding abt life..

"be careful abt wat you speak and write.. cause you might offend pple you dunno -- ms Rosemary"

after she said that, i realised how true that was.. cause i could think of a very good example.. me.. but the person i offended is someone i know.. erm , last sat, i was talking with tw abt his score.. he was planning to name it 'violence' or 'rough' , which was a 180 degree twist from his original theme of 'elegance' ( he said he did not succeed in infusing the elements of elegance into it, i must agree).. then i joked with him that he can ask jasmine to do the ending by slamming a drum.. to change the theme to 'violence'..then i guess jasmine was so easy to offend.. so now, TO MISS EVER-SO-ELEGANT JASMINE, I SINCERELY APOLOGISE TO YOU..I AM SORRY.. IF I STILL GOT ALLOWANCE TMR, I WILL BUY SOMETHING TO COMPENSATE YOU.. jasmine, if you sees my blog, dun think that i am that kind of person who believes that money can solve things easily.. but i think it is a form of sincerity..

then sec schs exams period now.. then dun need to go to the schools till the second week of may.. tmr gg to help mark teach tuition.. cause i free and can get some money..but i dun think i will teach tuition for long.. cause i am gg to work for mark ma.. he use finish me will throw away de.. so i think i gg to teach only once ba.. then leave him alone le... haha..

today also received a piece of really stressing news..

YYSS de sch management have decided to keep the 2nd and 3rd week free of CCA.. f*** them lar.. the SYF performance is coming soon le.. less then two mths only nia leh! and YYSS de students are not as passionate nor clever as CCHY de pple.. why is it like that.. no wonder they are down sliding.. i was planning to go down twice or thrice a week during the holidays de.. but now, i think the 1st and 4th week of the holidays, 5 practices over the 5 days lor.. wat a stupid decision.. anyway, gg to talk to the school to argue to allow them to continue festival drums during the second week and third week.. pissed.. and they are mistreating the teacher-in-charge mdm liu lar.. cause she is so on and the school labelled her wrong.. double pissed..

nvm.. life will go on and it will be fun because of drumming and the fun CCHY boys..

ong lai,
sian..

yo pple!

haven really been blogging.. well, cause ruo han lent me his nitendo DS for like a week or so(which was a deed to himself anyway..).. so kinda got hooked on games.. i like being a surgeon(healing touch!*star*),as well as being a lawyer('objection!'), FF3, etc,etc... i apologise to all that have been reading my blog and sees no new entries(voice from within:"are there pple like that around???")...

but today, i think i will seperate all my different thoughts into different paragraphs.. targeted for different audiences..

first, to all my friends who wanna know my life has been.. erm.. one week down program, last week, wednesday, day off, went to CCHY de practice to do some stuff, like prepare for saturday's performance and packing of the timber store.. thursday, went to YYSS to teach drum still.. some of them have a bad attitude to learning drum.. especially the gals... so i was pissed off.. went off at 1730.. didn't give them their free hour of drum coaching...sorta like my personal rule.. 'show me the right attittude, i will teach. if not, bye bye at 5.30pm'.. anyway, the teacher was like chasing me off as well..friday, practice for saturday de performance.. practice area, was at CCHY de timber store. space not large, but i guess we pulled it off.. and special appearance of our zodiac dog(peng hong).. why he is the zodiac dog, it is a long story and ask me personally if you are really interested.. and i got my time table from SIM, as well as the booklist and orientation 'camp' notice.. haven really read throught it detailly.. even missed out the duedate to buy books(ya, we still using books)..BUT 4 BOOKS COST AROUND $170++.. $$$-expensive-$$$ huh.. but nvm, CA and i have decided to buy one set and photocopy our textbooks.. and share cost..saturday, went to performance at NUS.. met the others early in the morning and had breakfast(jumbo tank and hot chocolate at the canteen there, great meal!).. due to the terrian or terrian of NUS, the transportation of drums was a little not as smooth as other performance.. i had to move 7 drumstands from the carpark to the auditorium.. with vertical height difference of lets say 3 metres.. i had to climb 3 flights of steps consisting of 23 steps(ca counted it) in each flight of steps..lucky dennis was there to help me move my drum.. the performance went well, except the fact that the speaker before us, over-ran his speech like half an hour..and made our wait super hilarious(with tony and dennis around).. but we can't make noise.. lol..(oops, cannot at backstage).. tony's ribcage is 'bendable' by the way..and when i was trying to set an expression on stage, i stared at a few of the audience(mostly forigners btw), one of the male audience gave me a reply expression of a smirk,or smile combined with a blink, i was totally confused by wat that was supposed to mean.. sunday til today, work for my dad.. really shorthanded, got containers coming in, racks that need to be dismentled and new rack to assemble...huge delieveries.. so and so lar.. then now bloggong lo..

second, to the pple in ZingO.. i have a lot of different thoughts of how ZingO is gg to turn out in the future.. in the previous generation of chung-gO, aka wu jiang, all of them,djw,d vincent,edmnd,yong hui, kelvin and aw, wat has remained is djw and d vincent.. the otheres have not been really on to drun..they may have their own reasons , but i feel that the unity between then has drifted elsewhere besides drum..then, T-gO, saying of the current menbers in ZingO, after graduating from TP, after you all go find jobs, will you drift away as well?? some have.. Fu-gO..O levels right now, i hope you guys will come back still after your O levels.. now the current generation of Chung-gO, the 12 zodiacs.. regardless of which schools we went, i still see us as 12 zodiacs..tony, me, ruo han, eugene,xjw,zi ming,teck wee, dennis,belson,chun ann,peng hong and edvwin...left with 10 and out of the ten, one in army..the filteration has occured.. will it still continue til we are tripled filtered as like how we were the residue since secondary school? i dunno the answer and i hope the the 10 of us will not become the filtrate but always the residue in ZingO.. guys, can we have a pact not to abandon each another like how the previous generation did?

personal footprints..
life of loner is no longer a pain in the neck.. i am getting used to it..

hope to find a parnter when sch starts and forget abt you.. edvwin's nick"to lose you is hard,to stop loving you is harder, and forgetting you is hardest to do." the song on the blog is to you..p,i said i have got over you.. but i haven.. looking at the photos you took with him on the yatch and in korean evokes the feelings i am trying to surpress down for the longest time with the greatest efforts.. jealousy, anger, lost.. CA asked me, ' ong, how come you dun wanna get a galfriend?', i was dumbfounded at the moment..i feel so lost, i cant answer a question i should know very well.. fuck these feelings..
love is a addiction in a form of sweets.. it appears so nice and feels nice.. but prolong love can lead to disappointment and love turns ugly..

ong lai